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For as long as I can remember, I've wanted a puppy.. however, right along with that want for my puppy, I've had a recurring nightmare for just as long.. the nightmare always revolved around me losing my puppy in various different ways. On Sunday, that nightmare became reality. My lovely Jill, a 5 month old corgi/jack russell mix.. parvo took her from me, exactly 1 week after she came to live with me. It was a horrible 2 days of her being sick, Sunday morning we knew it was time to end her misery when lost control of her body.
It's been a terrible week, I'm just trying to get through with little to no support from friends and family. I just have people freaking out that I brought parvo into the area, and that I never should have gotten a dog. When I had her toys out still, I would just sit and stare at them, feeling a huge gape in my heart. I knew I had to bleach everything, and so I did.. I just did it mindlessly.. bleached the carpet, bleached her toys, bleached her blanket, bleached everything.. I just keep thinking about parvo being all over everything and it's beyond horrible. Her favorite toy.. a kong that I stuffed with peanut butter for her, I had to throw away. I am not one of those people who says they will NEVER get another dog, however I'm not going to get one until we move out of this place and even then, I have my reservations.. I'm going to spend the whole time with the next dog just waiting for this to happen again..
My life feels kind of empty again, for the first time in a few years. I was already in a routine with her, her feeding schedule, her walks, play time.. I had bought a clicker to clicker train her.. and now there is no dog. She's just gone.
I still have my four amazing cats, who seem to know I've been feeling down. One of my cats, Nova, just won't leave my side, she's even gotten to the point of slipping in behind me on my chair, sleeping against my back. And another of my cats, Nero, has been sleeping right next to me in bed where Jill slept. I love them so much.
I guess I'm rambling now, I'll share some pictures of her:
It's been a terrible week, I'm just trying to get through with little to no support from friends and family. I just have people freaking out that I brought parvo into the area, and that I never should have gotten a dog. When I had her toys out still, I would just sit and stare at them, feeling a huge gape in my heart. I knew I had to bleach everything, and so I did.. I just did it mindlessly.. bleached the carpet, bleached her toys, bleached her blanket, bleached everything.. I just keep thinking about parvo being all over everything and it's beyond horrible. Her favorite toy.. a kong that I stuffed with peanut butter for her, I had to throw away. I am not one of those people who says they will NEVER get another dog, however I'm not going to get one until we move out of this place and even then, I have my reservations.. I'm going to spend the whole time with the next dog just waiting for this to happen again..
My life feels kind of empty again, for the first time in a few years. I was already in a routine with her, her feeding schedule, her walks, play time.. I had bought a clicker to clicker train her.. and now there is no dog. She's just gone.
I still have my four amazing cats, who seem to know I've been feeling down. One of my cats, Nova, just won't leave my side, she's even gotten to the point of slipping in behind me on my chair, sleeping against my back. And another of my cats, Nero, has been sleeping right next to me in bed where Jill slept. I love them so much.I guess I'm rambling now, I'll share some pictures of her:
