This post is extremely difficult to write. And, I will apologize in advance as I have limited information to share. But, please, if you're able and willing, my family could use whatever prayers or vibes that you can spare...
Most of you will know that I am semi-estranged from my family. Over this year, some relationships have been mended, but are still on shaky ground. But, there has been some effort. And, for that, I am grateful.
I received a phone call this evening from my mother informing me that my cousin's baby had passed away. My cousin and I were extremely close as children and even graduated from high school together. We strayed as we got older, but had started to rebuild our relationship over the last couple of years. Last year, she had a beautiful baby girl. And, today, at only 14 months old, she has passed. To our knowledge, there appears to be no medical cause for her passing. And, from the information I've received thus far, it appears it was accidental. I, personally, am struggling greatly with that. However, for the time being, I will leave it at that. She lives across the country and the information I've gotten has come from my mother, my father, and his wife. They got their information from my aunt and grandmother. Suffice it to say, things are very difficult right now.
My aunt is devastated. That baby was her entire world. And, my heart breaks for her. However, to some extent, I am struggling with feeling compassion for others in my family. I don't know the details of what happened and I don't have the right to pass judgement. But, right now, I am in shock. And, I've been crying throughout the evening -- for a precious baby and for all of those who loved and cared for her. But, along with that sadness comes anger. And, unfortunately, anger is the predominant emotion I feel right now. Anger, frustration, and deep, deep sadness...
In the coming days, more will be revealed. I cannot fathom what my cousin and her husband are going through. I cannot imagine losing a child. But, there is more to this story and I am also filled with other emotions. However, in the end, what is important is that a sweet child is no longer with us. And, with that being said, any prayers or vibes that can be shared with my family would be most appreciated.
This is a horrible tragedy and I am heartbroken. I am overcome with emotions that I cannot even describe. And, despite this being a family affair, I feel very alone. Thank you all for being here and for allowing me to share. I'm sorry that I cannot say more. But, please know that I am thankful for you all and for all of your thoughts and prayers. Rest in peace, baby Isabella. Rest in peace...
Most of you will know that I am semi-estranged from my family. Over this year, some relationships have been mended, but are still on shaky ground. But, there has been some effort. And, for that, I am grateful.
I received a phone call this evening from my mother informing me that my cousin's baby had passed away. My cousin and I were extremely close as children and even graduated from high school together. We strayed as we got older, but had started to rebuild our relationship over the last couple of years. Last year, she had a beautiful baby girl. And, today, at only 14 months old, she has passed. To our knowledge, there appears to be no medical cause for her passing. And, from the information I've received thus far, it appears it was accidental. I, personally, am struggling greatly with that. However, for the time being, I will leave it at that. She lives across the country and the information I've gotten has come from my mother, my father, and his wife. They got their information from my aunt and grandmother. Suffice it to say, things are very difficult right now.
My aunt is devastated. That baby was her entire world. And, my heart breaks for her. However, to some extent, I am struggling with feeling compassion for others in my family. I don't know the details of what happened and I don't have the right to pass judgement. But, right now, I am in shock. And, I've been crying throughout the evening -- for a precious baby and for all of those who loved and cared for her. But, along with that sadness comes anger. And, unfortunately, anger is the predominant emotion I feel right now. Anger, frustration, and deep, deep sadness...
In the coming days, more will be revealed. I cannot fathom what my cousin and her husband are going through. I cannot imagine losing a child. But, there is more to this story and I am also filled with other emotions. However, in the end, what is important is that a sweet child is no longer with us. And, with that being said, any prayers or vibes that can be shared with my family would be most appreciated.
This is a horrible tragedy and I am heartbroken. I am overcome with emotions that I cannot even describe. And, despite this being a family affair, I feel very alone. Thank you all for being here and for allowing me to share. I'm sorry that I cannot say more. But, please know that I am thankful for you all and for all of your thoughts and prayers. Rest in peace, baby Isabella. Rest in peace...
