Well thats it, the chapter is closed on my step father and I am home after an emotional funeral. Suddenly I feel as though I am mentally wrecked and exhausted.
I did the dutyful son bit, sat at the front and listened, although I admit I found it hard to look at anything but the coffin.
At the end I drove us all home - talked a little and then she told me that she and Paul had been to see Clive in the chapel of rest yesterday. I wanted to do that and it was all my effort to hold my tongue in place as could feel the anger welling up.
I left her with Paul and telling her to call me if she needs me - I have a feeling it will be a long time before that happens - so its onwards and upwards for me - I am to continue flying and it felt good to be talking with people that Paul had no idea who they were at the crematorium.
Anyway, heres raising a glass and if you are having one tonight, raise it to Clive for me and its time for me to move forward in life.
I did plant a rose this morning for Vicki - that felt good.
If there is a god up there - hope hes up for offering a little help to us!
On a final note, the only two things thathave made this week bearable for me is my wife and all of you - and I owe each of you more than you know. If I can ever help anyone of you =- dont hesitate to ask.
A bientot
Kev
I did the dutyful son bit, sat at the front and listened, although I admit I found it hard to look at anything but the coffin.
At the end I drove us all home - talked a little and then she told me that she and Paul had been to see Clive in the chapel of rest yesterday. I wanted to do that and it was all my effort to hold my tongue in place as could feel the anger welling up.
I left her with Paul and telling her to call me if she needs me - I have a feeling it will be a long time before that happens - so its onwards and upwards for me - I am to continue flying and it felt good to be talking with people that Paul had no idea who they were at the crematorium.
Anyway, heres raising a glass and if you are having one tonight, raise it to Clive for me and its time for me to move forward in life.
I did plant a rose this morning for Vicki - that felt good.
If there is a god up there - hope hes up for offering a little help to us!
On a final note, the only two things thathave made this week bearable for me is my wife and all of you - and I owe each of you more than you know. If I can ever help anyone of you =- dont hesitate to ask.
A bientot
Kev