Could use some thoughts or vibes

I wasnt going to post about this but its been weighing on my mind and I know I can count on you all for some support that I cant get in real life.

Almost a year ago after some really heavy thoughts and considerations and major discussions DF and I decided that I need to remove the bug I had up my butt and decide if it was a legitimate not wanting to have kids or massive fear and anxiety that caused me to not want to have kids. After talking about it and thinking about it for almost a year we decided we atleast want to try. With the blessing from my mom and the girls we went ahead and started trying. Well in May we had found out we were pregnant and just a month later at 9 weeks we found out we miscarried. I had to have surgery to take care of myself and what had happened and it was horrible. I got zero support or anything from anyone in real life (df excluded from that but he didnt know what to do) and I really went into a tiny little bubble away from anyone and everything. After about 2 months we started trying again and a couple weeks ago right before Dfs birthday we found out we were pregnant again. Things have been going ok but not great. I have a dr appt this coming Tuesday and it will be the first ultrasound. I am nervous and have some anxiety about it because of what happened last time.

Logically I know that whatever happens its literally out of my control and I cant do anything about it. Last time was a fluke of gene A not matching right to gene B and things just didnt match up right. There was nothing I could do about it and nothing would have changed the outcome. It still doesnt make things better but it helped knowing that there was nothing I could do about it. I have taken that mindset for this go round and Im trying not to stress about anything...except this dang appointment. It gives me the monster heebie jeebies. So basically. Im just asking for some vibes or something. Anything that might just make me feel a little less crazy and a little more normal. LOL haha me normal...what a thought.

Anyways..Thanks for letting me get that off my chest. It feels good to atleast not be hiding it anymore.

Oh no! That had to be so rough not having any support in real life

Many many great positive vibes that everything will go smoothly in this pregnancy

Tyler, first of all congratulations again! I was so excited when you told me the other week. I'm so happy for you!

And secondly, I'm glad you mentioned it here, too. Because this group has powerful vibes and when you have a lot of people pulling with you, well, you're going to do well.    

(If you need to talk, I'm right here, too. And I mean that.)

Thinking of you sweetheart! I hope everything goes well!

Oh Tyler, I'm so sorry you had to go through something like that on your own! Of course you were devastated. :heart3:

MEGA for a healthy preganancy, and for your (completely understandable!) anxiety! :heart3:

hno: So sorry you had to deal with that all alone That is just awful and would make anyone very, very sad and depressed . Hoping for a healthy pregnancy this time :cross: and sending loads of prayers/vibes

Thank you everyone.

Im trying not to stress out but its hard. Like that little evil thought in the back of my head that wont go away.

Hopefully Tuesday brings good news and more good news following that.


Sorry so short.....my phone is being a booger.

I wish you the best of luck and hope you will have good tests and eventually have a healthy baby.

Congratulations, and lots of that everything goes smoothly this time!

Congrats, and relax.

I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

I am hoping and praying for a smooth pregnancy and a happy, healthy baby 

Again hun Congratulations!!! Lots of for everything to go smoothly!!! Good luck on Tuesday

for Tuesday!!! I hope the news is good and you're nerves are calmed.

So sorry to hear you had no support when you really needed it.  

Best wishes to you and your fiance!!

More good  your way! Hoping all will be well 

I'll be thinking about you and praying for you.  And congratulations! 

Sending warm thoughts your way!

 and  I hope things go well at your u/s!

  Aww.  Your fears sound completely normal to me!  I've watched a few friends go through it.  Its got to be one of the roughest things to go through period!

But you do know that it was a fluke of the genes not lining up last time so try to focus on that.  I know it's hard and you'll probaby have to re-focus your thoughts from time to time too.  Hopefully after the ultrasound you'll feel a little more reassured.

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Congratulations, and lots of that everything goes smoothly this time!

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