so cynder is at the vet getting neutered today, and i am going in on friday to have surgery as well. the ironic thing is he is going to not make babies anymore and i am going in to have my tubes unblocked so i can have children. i got cynder for that very reason because i was devastated and depreesed about my situation.. i am very nervous about having this surgery and it will only give me a 10% chance of having children unless i do ivf which is so expensive.. i never thought i would go as far as possibly spending 12000 dollars on ivf but here i am doing the first step.. all i wanted in life was to be a mom and now its probably going to cost me 12000 dollars to do it... send some vibes for me friday will you guys, like i said im very nervous and have never had surgery before, and i pray that i do get pregnant with just this surgery or i really don't know what i will do.. its a very tough journey this one and i feel for all who have had the same issues, its not an easy road thats for sure.
