I went back to work yesterday, the same place I took a stress leave from.
When I went off work in April I was so depressed that I was suicidal and felt so trapped that I actually found myself making a "plan" to kill myself. I was afraid for myself and went to my doctor and told him I needed a medical leave otherwise I'd end up killing myself. I was afraid for me, and so was he.
He upped my anti-depressant but I was so depressed that I took to my bed for about 3 weeks and didn't have the ambition to have a long term disability form filled out. Weeks went by and still it was just too much effort to even get showered and dressed to go to my doctor. Soon 5 months went by and I'd blown through my savings as frugal as I was living, and I didn't step up my job search until about 1 month ago. So fast forward to day!
I returned to work yesterday because I need the income. I was sick to my stomach and just shook when I thought of having to go back to that place and that nursing assignment.
I met with the new manager who was in the CRN position when I left in April. She has clinic experience, she's nice and she is fair and understands the pressure of the clinics unlike the idiot manager who was there before.
I asked for a change in assignment because individually the 2 doctors I work with have a work load that is managable, but when combined together in the same assignment, it's just too much!
Today she met with me again and told me that they have a new assignment for me. Some of it is an area that I've worked before, and another part is new to me. But the best part of it is the fact that it's in Radiation Oncology. I don't have to worry about monitoring blood work daily, because they don't do much blood work with Radiation Oncology, that is left to the Medical Oncologists to follow. And I don't have to worry about keeping track of patient's chemotherapy schedules.
All of my clinics will be in the morning with the exception of 1 which is in the afternoon. So I don't have to worry about not getting out of work on time, and I'll have the afternoons to do my charting from my morning clinics.
I've worked with 2 of the 3 doctors before. But I know the 3rd doctor. She is the wife of a doctor I used to work with there when I first started and she is a total sweetheart!!
So I'm thrilled! Thrilled! Thrilled!!!
When I went off work in April I was so depressed that I was suicidal and felt so trapped that I actually found myself making a "plan" to kill myself. I was afraid for myself and went to my doctor and told him I needed a medical leave otherwise I'd end up killing myself. I was afraid for me, and so was he.
He upped my anti-depressant but I was so depressed that I took to my bed for about 3 weeks and didn't have the ambition to have a long term disability form filled out. Weeks went by and still it was just too much effort to even get showered and dressed to go to my doctor. Soon 5 months went by and I'd blown through my savings as frugal as I was living, and I didn't step up my job search until about 1 month ago. So fast forward to day!
I returned to work yesterday because I need the income. I was sick to my stomach and just shook when I thought of having to go back to that place and that nursing assignment.
I met with the new manager who was in the CRN position when I left in April. She has clinic experience, she's nice and she is fair and understands the pressure of the clinics unlike the idiot manager who was there before.
I asked for a change in assignment because individually the 2 doctors I work with have a work load that is managable, but when combined together in the same assignment, it's just too much!
Today she met with me again and told me that they have a new assignment for me. Some of it is an area that I've worked before, and another part is new to me. But the best part of it is the fact that it's in Radiation Oncology. I don't have to worry about monitoring blood work daily, because they don't do much blood work with Radiation Oncology, that is left to the Medical Oncologists to follow. And I don't have to worry about keeping track of patient's chemotherapy schedules.
All of my clinics will be in the morning with the exception of 1 which is in the afternoon. So I don't have to worry about not getting out of work on time, and I'll have the afternoons to do my charting from my morning clinics.
I've worked with 2 of the 3 doctors before. But I know the 3rd doctor. She is the wife of a doctor I used to work with there when I first started and she is a total sweetheart!!
So I'm thrilled! Thrilled! Thrilled!!!