rest in peace, grey kitten

frankthetank

TCS Member
Thread starter
Alpha Cat
Joined
Aug 20, 2006
Messages
400
Purraise
12
Location
Ohio
This is a hard post to write. This is my first kitten I have seen pass away.

A month ago my husband and I took in three kittens that were a little under 2 weeks old. Their eyes were only half opened, they had been orphaned and needed bottle fed. They ate well and flourished. They had been without a mama cat for almost 2 days so we were very worried for the first few days. They seemed to do really well.

After about a week and a half, the little grey one seemed sick. He was lethargic, eating but not much and hadn't pooped in 2 days. We were stimulating them at the time but he woudln't go. We took him to the vet and he was dewormed and given medicine to help him poop. We got to bring some of the medicine home to give him for 2 days or until he was regular. It worked well. The vet cautioned that bottle fed kittens have a higher death rate and that he could have been born with something that was causing the sickness. He said if the medicine didn't work, signs could point to that and to bring him back...but if the meds worked, assume he is fine.

The grey one had never been as playful as his siblings. The other 2 played all the time but the all grey one was more quiet and calm. He was more calm after he got better, but always ate, and used the litterbox just fine.

Monday he met his new family for the first time. It wasn't time for him to go to them yet but they were in town (live normally about 3 hours away) and so they stopped to see him. He was fine. He was fine Tuesday morning. By Tuesday afternoon he was seeming lethargic. We gave him more of the medicine to help him poop because he hadn't pooped in 1-2 days and we thought he was constipated again. It didn't work. We fed him using a syringe to get some food down and planned to take him to the vet today had he not pooped or gotten better. By the time he was getting sicker last night, our vet was closed.

He slept on a fleece between my husband and I all night. The other kittens must have known something was up because they all slept in our bed between us which they have never done before. I barely slept because I didn't want to roll on a kitten so I was up all the time checking on them and the sicky one.

This morning I could tell the end was near, and in lieu of finding an emergency vet and trying to rush him there, I tried to cuddle him to make his last moments as easy as possible. It was horrible. I completely blame myself. People keep telling me it happens with kittens but I try to think of everything I could have done and didn't do soon enough. I had to tell the woman who was taking him that he passed which was very hard. She used to work in a vet office so she knows it happens sometimes to kittens, so she is taking it WAY better then I am. I am a mess.

rest in peace my little angel kitten. you have touched my life in so many ways in your very short life. you will be missed and are loved so very much.
 

Winchester

In the kitchen with my cookies
Veteran
Joined
Aug 28, 2009
Messages
29,762
Purraise
28,151
Location
In the kitchen
Your post breaks my heart, too. I'm so sorry that he passed away. You did everything you could for that little one and sometimes, it's just not meant to be. Thank you for what you're doing for the his siblings. And thank you for trying so hard.
 

bellaandme

TCS Member
Top Cat
Joined
Jan 6, 2010
Messages
2,001
Purraise
22
Location
Indianapolis, IN
Because of you that little baby knew what kisses and cuddles felt like. Don't blame yourself. You loved him and care of him for the short time he was in this world. What a blessing you were in his life!! I'm sorry for your pain. RIP little grey kitten
 

jcat

Mo(w)gli's can opener
Veteran
Joined
Feb 13, 2003
Messages
73,213
Purraise
9,851
Location
Mo(w)gli Monster's Lair
You did what you could, but sometimes things are just beyond our control. I'm very sorry you lost him. RIP, little one.
 
  • Thread Starter Thread Starter
  • #5

frankthetank

TCS Member
Thread starter
Alpha Cat
Joined
Aug 20, 2006
Messages
400
Purraise
12
Location
Ohio
Here are a few pictures taken Monday afternoon, when the couple that was supposed to be little Bugs new parents came to visit~

sleepy boy!


Just woke up!


wanting to pounce on his fluffy brother


I think in some of the pictures he is looking a little out of it, I thought it was from being sleepy but now i feel like he was maybe starting to get sick Monday. Either way I can't stop thinking that I should have taken him to the vet sooner or done more. We took him to the funeral home for cremation, they have a nice package where we get a little urn w/ a nameplate, a paw print and a lock of hair. And today the woman who was going to be his mommy emailed me all her pictures from their visit so now I have a lot more pictures of him, which is helping a little. Thanks to all for your kind words and private messages of support...it means the world to me.
 

farleyv

TCS Member
Top Cat
Joined
Feb 19, 2009
Messages
4,796
Purraise
36
Location
New York State
My tears are falling like yours as I read this.

He did not pass alone. Don't we all wish to be held and loved as we move on to that other place.

My heart aches for you. In his honor, love on the others. In his memory maybe donate a couple dollars to a rescue. Maybe it will make you feel better that because of him, others will benefit.

God bless.
 
  • Thread Starter Thread Starter
  • #8

frankthetank

TCS Member
Thread starter
Alpha Cat
Joined
Aug 20, 2006
Messages
400
Purraise
12
Location
Ohio
thank you.
I have been a mess. Hubby thinks it i s affecting me more because I was with him when it happened. IDK. I have so many pictures of the kittens in my phone bc they are freakin cute so I took a ton of pics...and everytime I come across a picture of the grey kitty I just cry and cry. I think the main problem I am facing is that I can't stop blaming myself. No matter how many times I see/hear that it was probably inevitable, I just feel like I could have somehow done something. So it's hard.

We ended up setting it up to make a monthly donation to the ASPCA, so we can hopefully help other animals in need. I also found out that in our town there is a "pet pantry" where people in need of items for their pets can receive help, so we are gathering some items that we can donate to them. It won't bring the baby back, but it will help other animals in need which makes me feel better.
 

kailie

TCS Member
Veteran
Joined
Jan 20, 2010
Messages
9,025
Purraise
25
Location
New Brunswick, Canada
Poor beautiful little one...
You showed him what love was like you know, and he didn't pass without experiencing that love.
As much as I hate to say it, it DOES happen all the time and is completely beyond our control. Being a foster mom, sometimes despite all of our best efforts, certain little ones just weren't meant to be.
 

mystik spiral

TCS Member
Top Cat
Joined
Jul 28, 2009
Messages
2,614
Purraise
31
Location
Denver, CO
What an adorable little angel the Rainbow Bridge was blessed with.
I can't imagine the pain and sorrow you feel, and as empty as my words probably feel to you, PLEASE don't blame yourself. You did 1000x more than anyone in your situation would do, and you gave that little guy love, hugs, kisses and cuddles to accompany him along on his journey. Now he can share your love and selfless compassion with others who weren't as lucky to have someone like you in their lives.

You did an amazing thing, and it's nothing to "blame" yourself for. Every time you want to blame yourself that this little grey kitten didn't make it, just think of all the lonely kitty souls he shared your love with.
 

feralvr

TCS Member
Veteran
Joined
Dec 30, 2010
Messages
18,474
Purraise
689
Location
Northwest Indiana
I am late in seeing this, but just want you to know how very sad I am that you went through such pain. Loving and caring for these little angels can be very heartbreaking. The little darling, knew how much you loved him and thanks to you, he left this earth feeling that love. I am truly sorry...... they are beautiful kittens.
RIP
grey baby

 
Top