Yogi, TNRd feral is missing

Oh Lauren, not BooBoo now too! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Originally Posted by LDG

Oh Lauren, not BooBoo now too!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Boo Boo is back this morning and was sitting on top of the feeding station . I, again, asked him where Yogi is... they were never separated and I think Boo went looking for him these last two days and has returned home to the territory. Those two never left the yard area much at all. I just feel that Yogi is gone on to the bridge. I am saying a prayer for him to out where we always sat. I am tearing up right now, I AM SO SORRY YOGI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wish I could have saved you

one bit of good news.
Now come home, Yogi!

Don't feel guilty, Lauren, You did all you could for Yogi. It's not your fault he's disappeared. I'm sure he knows how much you loved him.

Since I've "talked" to you via PMs concerning Yogi, I guess there's not much else that I can say. I'll just keep praying that Yogi comes back.

Oh such a relief Boo's back home!!!!!

Lauren, the hardest part of TNR is the "R."

I'm just so sorry sweetie. It's impossible not to feel guilty, but TRY not to beat yourself up. He owned a piece of your heart, and I'm SO sorry for the pain and tears... he had a wonderful home, and like Tiff said, I'm sure he knows it, and knows how much you love him.

I'll keep up the prayers for a miracle too.

Originally Posted by LDG

Oh such a relief Boo's back home!!!!!

Lauren, the hardest part of TNR is the "R."

I'm just so sorry sweetie. It's impossible not to feel guilty, but TRY not to beat yourself up. He owned a piece of your heart, and I'm SO sorry for the pain and tears... he had a wonderful home, and like Tiff said, I'm sure he knows it, and knows how much you love him.

I'll keep up the prayers for a miracle too.

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Thanks and I would need a miracle at this point. I totally fear the worst has happened to poor sweet Yogi. This almost makes me wonder if I am cut out for this TNR stuff. Just bear with me, I am feeling lousy about it today and will be able to pull myself up and keep on doing what I believe in. But.... right now, the pain in my heart , is an unexpected feeling and don't know how to deal with this at the moment. I went looking for him again yesterday, in grubby clothes, crawling around and searched under that abandoned house's deck with a very powerful flashlight. It is a large deck and I was worried he was under there and if I could at least find his body, I could give him a proper burial. . He was not there, so that gave me some hope for a little while. Never knew how much he meant until he was gone......It just feels like a great loss to me.

Oh Lauren, I'm so glad that Boo came back! I hadn't noticed that he had gone missing, too. I'll bet you're right: he was probably out looking for Yogi and came back when he couldn't find him - poor guy.

Please try to not beat yourself up over this, Lauren. I know it's sometimes hard not to do so when we take care of the ferals like we do cuz we end up feeling so responsible, but there's only so much we can do. You did all you could to give Yogi a secure & loving place to live: you weren't the one who chased him away...

I wish I could be there to give you a big hug. I know how you feel: it's the most helpless feeling in the world.

Originally Posted by Feralvr

...It just feels like a great loss to me.

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I know sweetie.

I know I couldn't go what you do.....you must be a great person to put so much of yourself into those cats....pls come home Yogi

Well I couldn't do it. Unless I had to. Frankly, I often (very often) think about quiting the volunteering at the shelter. It takes a lot out of me emotionally. But I just can't abandon my cat friends there. For some of them, the time I spend with them is about the only attention they get. And it's far from enough. So I keep dragging myself there even though I usually leave depressed because I can't do more for them. Some wait years to get a real life.

So, I don't know what the alternative is for you, Lauren. You couldn't not take care of these cats outside your door. And you can't not get attached to them.

Lately I've been thinking I'm not cut out for tcs. I grieve for the lost cats, and the ones who die. I feel like I know some of them. I empathize with their owners too much. There is too much sadness in my life.

We need some good news around here.

Robin

Originally Posted by bastetservant

Well I couldn't do it. Unless I had to. Frankly, I often (very often) think about quiting the volunteering at the shelter. It takes a lot out of me emotionally. But I just can't abandon my cat friends there. For some of them, the time I spend with them is about the only attention they get. And it's far from enough. So I keep dragging myself there even though I usually leave depressed because I can't do more for them. Some wait years to get a real life.

So, I don't know what the alternative is for you, Lauren. You couldn't not take care of these cats outside your door. And you can't not get attached to them.

Lately I've been thinking I'm not cut out for tcs. I grieve for the lost cats, and the ones who die. I feel like I know some of them. I empathize with their owners too much. There is too much sadness in my life.

We need some good news around here.

Robin

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Big mega to you Robin for being the caring and loving person you really are. First of all, I know how very depressing shelter volunteering is. And I have been to your shelter and others and always leave crying too. It kills me to see those cats living out their lives in cages. It is just not right. Then I look at the ferals life. At least they are free. But at what cost. What is the better life neither. Sadness is the word of the day. But tomorrow we will carry on and keep caring for those shelter cats and the ferals who need us so desperately. Just think of the moments you spend with your friends at the shelter and how much your visit means to those cats. That's what I am telling myself about Yogi. The special moments we shared each day getting closer. And I did tell him I loved him

At least on TCS, we have each other to turn to for support and we are always here for each other no matter what. I am glad you are here on TCS and we have a lot in common and that is the good news. I appreciate your prayers and know what you mean about caring way too much for other's cats. It can get emotionally draining if you let it. Ups and downs!!!!! WE NEED SOME UPS!!!!!!!

Thank goodness Boo came home. That would have been too much. Still sending vibes for Yogi.

Oh Lauren, your pain is so deep and so is your love. I am happy Boo came back home. I am terribly sad that Yogi did not. Sadness is the word of the day, and we all can relate to your deep sorrow.

Yogi knows you love him and I know you know that. And this is forever.

I don't even know him but for some reason I feel as if I do and the image of the two of you just hanging out in the grass, you talking to him and he listening and looking at you, stirs my heart with peace. I am sensing he is an old soul.

This may sound crazy but somehow I KNOW he was very, very happy with you.

When Sammy died one of my friends who is running a local cat rescue group told me that "the hardest part of having them is giving them back".

Oh I'm so sorry to read this. I would never be able to do what you do either. I know you are beating yourself up, but please try to keep in mind that you have done a lot for him.

I'm going to keep up the vibes for him.

Thank you so very much all of you for your continued vibes for Yogi . I have come to accept that he is just gone on to the bridge and yes, he did seem like an old soul. He was the one back in December when it was about five degrees out, just frigidly and brutally cold and sat outside of the warming shelter I had built for them and he kept looking back at the bushes and just sat on the freezing ground shivering. I didn't know why he was just sitting there and looking back at the bushes. Well, out came (Magilla) she was the shyest of the kittens. She walked up to Yogi, and Yogi took his paw and pushed her into the shelter so she could eat. My heart has never been touched and warmed like that in my life witnessing that was just the most selfless thing I have ever seen in my life. To be so darn freezing cold, to be so darn hungry, and to care more about the other members in his family before himself. He deserved so much more than what life threw at him. And I am so very heartsick he is gone....

Lauren, maybe his job was done here. His stay was short but filled with love.

He might not have been born inside a home where he received socialization to people, but that doesn't mean he didn't have a good life. !!! He was obviously a special little guy - and on top of it all, he COULD be happy and carefree because of everything you gave him, including your heart. We all may have wanted him to live a longer life, but that doesn't mean he didn't have a wonderful life, sweetie.

I'm sorry...I'm not sure what to say since I am going thru the same...I've been debating on whether to give up myself ...might be easier to deal with if I believe he is gone 2 like you...I know exactly how your feeling

Originally Posted by LDG

Lauren, maybe his job was done here.

His stay was short but filled with love.

He might not have been born inside a home where he received socialization to people, but that doesn't mean he didn't have a good life. !!! He was obviously a special little guy - and on top of it all, he COULD be happy and carefree because of everything you gave him, including your heart.

We all may have wanted him to live a longer life, but that doesn't mean he didn't have a wonderful life, sweetie.

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Thanks for that

Originally Posted by Feralvr

Thank you so very much all of you for your continued vibes for Yogi

. I have come to accept that he is just gone on to the bridge

and yes, he did seem like an old soul. He was the one back in December when it was about five degrees out, just frigidly and brutally cold and sat outside of the warming shelter I had built for them and he kept looking back at the bushes and just sat on the freezing ground shivering. I didn't know why he was just sitting there and looking back at the bushes. Well, out came (Magilla) she was the shyest of the kittens. She walked up to Yogi, and Yogi took his paw and pushed her into the shelter so she could eat.

My heart has never been touched and warmed like that in my life witnessing that was just the most selfless thing I have ever seen in my life. To be so darn freezing cold, to be so darn hungry, and to care more about the other members in his family before himself. He deserved so much more than what life threw at him. And I am so very heartsick he is gone....

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Oh man - I am just bawling my eyes out reading this. That reminds me so much of how my precious Maverick was. I remember the times he would beg me to let some stray in, so they wouldn't have to live the life of an outdoor kitty.

Lauren, I'm so sorry that Yogi hasn't come back. I was sure hoping he would. I'm sure that he & Maverick are at the Rainbow Bridge, welcoming all the other beloved furkids that come there, too.

Originally Posted by LDG

Lauren, maybe his job was done here.

His stay was short but filled with love.

He might not have been born inside a home where he received socialization to people, but that doesn't mean he didn't have a good life. !!! He was obviously a special little guy - and on top of it all, he COULD be happy and carefree because of everything you gave him, including your heart.

We all may have wanted him to live a longer life, but that doesn't mean he didn't have a wonderful life, sweetie.

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Very beautifully said, Laurie.