Its nearly time..

I posted a while ago about dh's grandad. He has had lung cancer now for 16 months, he decided against treatment as he was diagnosed just after his wife died. He has been very frail now for a few weeks,he was adamant he wanted to stay at home so he has been having care pretty much 24/7.
Unfortunately the last 2 days he has seriously deteriorated and he has now had to be moved to a nursing home, the doctor has said he will be lucky if he makes it to the weekend, he is so poorly. His pain is bein managed well but he does not know where he is and is barely conscious. Its so sad but he has had a long battle. I thought we would lose him when I last posted as he contracted pneumonia but amazinlgy he responded to antibiotics and pulled through.This time though the cancer has took hold and there is nothin anyone can do,just keep him comfortable.
I really hope when he passes he will meet up with dh's nanna again as he has never come to terms with losing her.xxx

Thankyou, I know you've been through it and its not nice but he is in a lot of pain and its not fair anymore.x

Dh's mum said today that he doesn't know where he is at all, he is so confused and keeps slipping in and out of consciousness. They have put him on morphine patches and the doctor came to see him today, he has apparently told the nurses at the home to give him the medication that will help him along to the end. In a way I hope he passes soon and peacefully, its terrible it only seems it was five minutes ago that we were at his nannas funeral, hopefully they will be together again soon.
At the minute dh has chosen not to visit him as it hit him really hard with his nanna and he is finding it hard to cope, we all respect him for that, everyone deals with grief differently.x

dh has decided he wants to see him so we are going tomorrow, I am scared, haven't seen him for 16 months and he will look so different. I want to see him though as I love him. I hope everything will go ok.x

We didn't go, we couldn't mil phoned and said he looks really bad and is not in a very good way. My dh just couldn't face it after losing his nanna and seeing her like that. I feel guilty but apparently he doesn't know anything that's going on around him anyway. I would rather remember him the way he was.xx

He passed away at 4am, dh's mum rang us to tell us this morning, she wasn't with him but she was there until very late last night, I don't think she could face being with him after losing her mum aswell.
I feel a bit odd, kind of like I am glad he is at peace hopefully now but also it's so sad. I assume the funeral will be next week sometime, he did not want a big service, so I think it will just be something short but then we will have a nice wake afterwards.God bless him.R.I.P.xx

Thankyou for all your kind replies, the funeral is next thursday. Everyone is bearing up ok, its weird but it seems to have brought a bit of peace that he has passed, hopefully now he is with his wife and not suffering anymore.xx

The funeral is next thursday, small service, cremation and then we are all going for a meal afterwards to a place where he and his wife used to go. Its been so stressful these past few days, I was worried dh wanted to go and see his grandad which I know would have just totally crushed him as he hasn't seen him for a long time so I know he wouldn't of expected him to look like that,anyway the dr has deemed him not fit for viewing which is quite sad for my mil as I know she would have gone to say goodbye as she has been there since day one along this but a relief in some ways for me as we can say our goodbyes at the funeral.
Dh's grandad loved his car,it was his pride and joy so fil has decided to follow the hurst in his car instead of a limo which I think is very fitting.
Last night dh went to their house to help his mum clear some thing as its rented and it has to be empty by 28th of this month when the lease is up. He brought a lot of photos home last night and it made me cry looking at them. Dh's mum was going to charity shop his nanas clothes but she had some wonderful things and some still with tags on, never worn, so I have asked if I can sell them and donate the proceeds to macmillan cancer care as they helped tremendously with his grandad and also his nana had breast cancer a few years back and overcame it.Mil has asked for family flowers only and then if anyone would like to they can send donations to the funeral place and it will then all go to macmillan.x

Thankyou, the donation will help us I think and they are such a wonderful care trust, they were brilliant with dh's grandad. He has brought the clothes tonight and there is so many, if it wasn't a rented property it would have taken us months to sort this kind of stuff as we would have had time on our side,I don't know how his mum is coping with it all to be honest and having to do it so quickly.It just seems so sad, like the end of an era, a chapter in our lives that is about to be closed.I just hope I can raise a good amount to donate for a wonderful charity.xx