Our sweet teddy bear Sammy is gone

We lost our teddy bear Sammy this past Tuesday morning. We took him in with what we hoped was a strained muscle. It ended up being a broken
femur in his good back leg (his right) in a spot very weakened by bone
cancer. He had a bad back leg (his left) with a frozen joint probably
from birth. We had no idea he had cancer in his bones. I noticed this
winter he slowed down a bit, but he maintained his weight and had a
very good appetite. We had him checked thoroughly and nothing showed up. His blood work and X-rays were fine too last December. His holistic vet put him on arthritis supplements and he seemed to be doing better. Just the night before he was playing like a kitten with Da Bird.

Tuesday morning Leo jumped on Sammy; he has this bad habit of
jumping on the others. I did not witness it but heard Sammy scream.
When I got there, Sammy was rolled in a ball, panic stricken and when he tried to walk he could not. We rushed him to our regular vet office. Dr Wendi was not in this week so the exam and everything was done by the other vet on duty. Sammy was in agony from the broken bone and nothing could be done because of the cancer.

While driving there I kept thinking about the arrangements we would have to make for him to facilitate the healing of the strained muscle and how to prevent Leo from jumping on him again. I even thought that if the bone is broken, since he is an older boy and fighting so many ailments, we may have to amputate his leg and this was breaking my heart. Not once had I thought we would not bring him home with us.

In order to be able to take an Xray they sedated him heavily. While he was
still out they gave him the final injection. We did not even have a
chance to say good bye to him while he was still awake. We kissed his licorice paws, and his face with his sweet eyes, and his belly where they saved some of his coat for us.

Just last March Sammy had a fibrosarcoma removed and Dr Nan, his holistic vet treated him for it. We really thought he was well and he would be for us with much longer. The pain of losing him is unbearable.

He is gone, and I keep waiting for him to walk around the corner and squeak at me asking for a pet. I want to pet and kiss him and he is not here. Our house and our life feels so empty.

Rest in peace our beautiful sweet baby, you have been a joy in our lives. We love you forever and ever, and we are devastated we did not know your pain. You hid it so well.

Oh no I am so sorry for the sudden loss of your beloved Sammy. What a devastating thing. I'm so sorry.

Sammy.

I am so sorry.

I am so truly sorry for your loss of Sammy. This is so sad that you couldn't tell him goodbye. Sammy was a blessed cat to have such a loving home. I am sure he knew it and appreciated your love and care for him. He was beautiful and such a special cat. I pray that your memories of him will be sweet. Rest in peace Sammy. You are loved and missed.

Oh I am so very sorry you lost your Sammy. It is so obvious he was a cherrished part of the family.

I know what it is like to expect to bring a kitty home, only to have those hopes crushed.

Sammy and you will be in my prayers. It is so painful to loose them. Almost unbearable. I hope in time you can look back with a smile on Sammys life and not with a tear.

God bless.

I am crying reading this... I am so, so incredibly sorry for what is obviously such a painful loss to you. That precious boy was lucky to have you. Rest in peace precious Sammy.

Losing him so unexpectedly must be devastating. I'm very sorry for your loss. RIP, Sammy,

I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. I'm so sorry you didn't get to say goodbye. Try to take comfort in the fact that he knew he was loved for all the time you had him.

Rest in peace, Sammy.

I am so sorry for your devastating loss.

Rest in peace beloved Sammy.

I'm very sorry for this sudden loss. I'm going to go give my cats a kiss right now in honour of your Sammy...just a reminder of how quickly we can lose them!

RIP Sammy.

I am so sorry you lost your sweet Sammy

I'm so sorry for your unexpected loss. It's crushing - I've been there. You will heal over time but I know it seems as if you never will at this point. My thoughts are with you

I'm so sorry your beautiful cat Sammy died.

Your loving comments and thoughts are deeply appreciated by my husband and I. Sammy thanks you too, he was a very grateful and thankful kitty.

We are waiting to bring his ashes home and have his shrine on the mantle next to Annie's and Heidi's.

We received a card from the staff at the vet's office, and they did somethig incredibly loving. Before they took his body away, we kept kissing and talking about his licorice pads and his button nose. So the stuff took his paw print on the card in black ink, and it looks exactly like his real paw pad.

I was trying last night to remember the smell of his coat and couldn't.

Thank you again from the bottom of my heart.

I have 2 of my kitties ashes with me....
when it's my time, I want our ashes to be scattered together.

You are deeply loved Sammy

I am so sorry that you have lost your Sammy. He sounds like he was a lovely boy. I had the same exerience on Monday with my feral, had no idea on taking him to vet that he wouldn´t be coming back. Such a shock, it is very difficult to accept that Sammy is no longer with you. Having his ashes with you will be of some comfort, and how kind of the vet staff to put Sammy´s paw print on the card for you. very thoughtful indeed. There are some lovely people in the world, thak goodness, who realise how special our pets are to us.

Take care, and as we know, it does get easier, be kind to yourself, baby steps for now, and the smell of his fur will come back, I think we try too hard in the beginning, and then panic when we can´t remember.

Thinking of you. Victoria x

Thank you Victoria for your very sweet and caring message. I have not been on the forum for the past few weeks, but I just read your thread. What a beautiful boy Freddie was. I am so glad that you had him for his final days, and I am so glad that he did not die alone in a dirty alley. My heart breaks for all the stray and feral kitties who live such hard lives. I have a big weakness for senior kitties and for stray and feral kitties. Our Sweet Pea is a former feral, and he is the reason I found this forum. A very big hug to you,
Marina

Very, very sorry to hear of your sudden loss of your beloved Sammie.
His heart will go on, and then yours will eventually come to meet Sammie again

Warmly,

Julie O'

Just want to say that I think your Sammy was a beautiful boy and I read about him on your profile. I loved his button nose. You certainly filled his life with much joy and love and what connection you had. I am truly sorry for your loss of Sammy. Grieving the loss of a beloved cat is extremely difficult and at times seems unbearable. He will always be in your heart and may his memories bring you comfort somehow. How wonderful your vet was in getting that paw print, much kindness and compassion on their part. Be good to yourself, Sammy would want that. You gave him a wonderful life.

RIP Sammy at peace now

I started to tear up just reading this, I have never lost any of my cats yet, but the thought alone of losing one of them is enough to make me cry. No words can make it any easier, but i'm so sorry you lost your Sammy, He isn't in pain anymore and atleast he was able to go in his sleep.