My precious Baddy passed away yesterday

Hello everyone:

I've had the worst night ever, my dear Baddy died of Leukemia yesterday, well, we had to put him to sleep because he was in agony. My cat Princess also had leukemia and had to be put to sleep months ago, and when Baddy tested positive I promised myself that I wouldn't let him suffer like princess suffered, she suffered for a whole week before we made the decision.

With Baddy, he started feeling sick on Monday, he never lost weight, but in the next couple of days things got to a point that he couldn't get up or eat, of course I took him to the vet, but instead of helping him so he could stop suffering the vet wanted to keep him two days so he could give him and IV and try other meds, I agreed, but something inside me was telling me it wasn't the right thing to do and I was right. I went to see him yesterday and he was in agony, I couldn't bear to see him suffer and I stared crying like crazy. His liver was enlarged, he was vomiting, he was anemic. I wish I could have been with him that night, his last night, OMG I loved him so much...

I was able to say good bye and I spent some time with him and I kissed him goodbye. I'm heartbroken. I feel guilty, I know it is not my fault, but I can't help feeling guilty because i didn't want him to suffer, and he did suffer. Thank God he is not suffering anymore. That is the only thing that comforts me.

he was my angel kitty, the most loving, sweet, cuddly, the best cat ever!

Thank you all for listening....

Tamar

Thank you both so much,. I guess it is normal to feel so guilty, you always feel you should have done things differently. It will take time for me to feel better, I just loved him so much.

I forgot to say that my Baddy was only 2 years old. he loved to sleep in our couch, in fact that is what had us worried about him, he slept all day, but he also liked to play and what was special about him is that when you entered a room he was in, he will instantly roll so you could rub his beautiful chubby belly. he was such a happy boy and loves to eat, specially salmon or whitefish food. he was also the noisy boy in the house, he woke me up every morning at 5am because he wanted his food. Today is the first day in two years he didn't wake me and OMG I miss that so mcuh! I loved hearing his little meows in the morning. ... Baddy i miss you!

I'm in tears right now, but feeling so comforted by all of you. Thank you all so much!

Yes, I did rescued baddy from the streets, but he was so tiny, like 6 or 7 weeks. he tested positive months ago, but he seemed perfectly fine and happy, he didn't have any symptoms until Monday, that is when my world turned upside down.

Thank you all, you all help me so much

hank you all so much, I miss Baddy so bad, yesterday I let my kitties Flaqui and Fuzzy go to the yard for a couple of minutes and when i went to call them back i called Baddy, when I realized I was calling him I couldn't stand the pain, I cried my eyes out. Is going to be difficult to recover from this, I loved him so much.... Hugs to all

Thank you all so much. i miss him everyday, every minute...