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I've been having nightmares a lot lately. Tonight, it was a really bad nightmare- I dreamed that there was a holocaust type environment and Americans were being put in concentration camps by some other country, which was probably a country I made up in my mind. It didn't happen to me because they chose who has to be put in the concentration camp by randomizing people's birth dates, and mine just hadn't come up. For a while I was completely oblivious to what was happening around me and the people around me who were being put in concentration camps, until I actually went inside one just to see, thinking that they will let me walk away from there...
And what I saw was awful, with extreme detail and I remember just barely slipping away from there and being so scared of being caught and not allowed to leave. I was never more scared in my life than I was in that dream. And later, still in my dream I made the conclusion that as long as I never see the awful things that go on around me, even if I am in some danger, as long as I am unaware and ignorant, I will always take my happiness and sense of security for granted. The way that dawned on me made me think of all those things I see on the news, people who are in harm's way whether it's natural disasters or wars or genocides, and it goes in one ear and out the other and I think to myself "gee that sucks", but I am never actually fully able to comprehend how awful people in those situations feel...
Anyway, that was just a really strange realization to make while dreaming, because most of my dreams are a bunch of nonsense put together, not like this one. But, the majority of my dreams have been just like this lately.
And what is bothering me is when I first wake up, I have already forgotten the dream, but later on in the day I get a flashback of the dream and that scared anxious feeling that I had while dreaming comes back and just creeps me out so much...Today it happened as I was getting ready for class and doing my make up in front of the mirror, and all of a sudden I remember something of what happened in the dream and it makes me all sad, emotional, etc..When I really get to thinking more about why this is happening I start to recall the dream in really good detail.
I'm just really bothered by this lately...Anyone have similar experiences?? I am not sure why that's happening, but I think it definitely indicates something is off with my emotional wellness, in fact I have been sleeping for 14 hours lately and haven't been in the most productive and happy moods...
And what I saw was awful, with extreme detail and I remember just barely slipping away from there and being so scared of being caught and not allowed to leave. I was never more scared in my life than I was in that dream. And later, still in my dream I made the conclusion that as long as I never see the awful things that go on around me, even if I am in some danger, as long as I am unaware and ignorant, I will always take my happiness and sense of security for granted. The way that dawned on me made me think of all those things I see on the news, people who are in harm's way whether it's natural disasters or wars or genocides, and it goes in one ear and out the other and I think to myself "gee that sucks", but I am never actually fully able to comprehend how awful people in those situations feel...
Anyway, that was just a really strange realization to make while dreaming, because most of my dreams are a bunch of nonsense put together, not like this one. But, the majority of my dreams have been just like this lately.
And what is bothering me is when I first wake up, I have already forgotten the dream, but later on in the day I get a flashback of the dream and that scared anxious feeling that I had while dreaming comes back and just creeps me out so much...Today it happened as I was getting ready for class and doing my make up in front of the mirror, and all of a sudden I remember something of what happened in the dream and it makes me all sad, emotional, etc..When I really get to thinking more about why this is happening I start to recall the dream in really good detail.
I'm just really bothered by this lately...Anyone have similar experiences?? I am not sure why that's happening, but I think it definitely indicates something is off with my emotional wellness, in fact I have been sleeping for 14 hours lately and haven't been in the most productive and happy moods...