I'm just really down right now  

took my two guys to the vet today.

Lears has a neurological problem which I will need to take him to a neurologist. His right back leg seemed to be slipping out from under him & he didn't seem to have that much control over it. Then I noticed he has this twitch on the right side, his whiskers & his ear on that side constantly twitch. then yesterday one eye was totally dilated while the other wasn't (that happened about a month ago right after we had him fixed. We thought it was a reaction to the anesthesia. went away by the morning).

so we took him & his brother in today. Doc said he definately was neurological, he stopped short of saying it was serious, but I know.

Man, I've grown really attached to this little cat. I mean, i've had animals all my life & I've loved them all, but I REALLY love this cat.


His brother, choripan, has been strugling with what another vet told us was an eye infection. Turns out that his lower eyelid is turning itself in to the eye. He gave us some stuff for that & said that worse case senario he'd need surgery. Basically an eye lift. If it would go untreated he could lose his eye, but he's not going to go untreated, you know.


I feel confident that we will take care of choripan & I feel it is something that is within our control, I don't feel the same confidence about Lears & I fear my time with him may be limited.

sorry for the long post. had to talk to someone.

thank you all for your support. I have no problem if Lears stays permantly gimpy, I'll love him just the same. He's such a super-sweet cat that he even wins over people who don't like cats (3 so far).

The experiences that I have had with Neurological problems have not been good. We had to put my mom's dog down a few years ago becouse she lost all feeling & movement in her back legs. A friend of mine also had a littler of kittens & one had that problem too, she couldn't use her back legs & had no control over her facilities, she had to be put down also.

I'm hoping for the best, but I'm also preparing for the worse.

I'm not THAT worried about Choripan's eye. I'm sure we can take care of that.

Although what is worrying me about him now is that he is acting wierd since yesterday. When we put him in a basket to take him to the vet he began crying like if something hurt & he sort of spazzed out. I thought that it was just him being a big baby & not wanting to go. He kinda freaked out in the car & then got real quiet, & he's been like that since, just sitting there in one spot. He hasn't ate anything since yesterday & that is also really worrying us since he is somewhat of a glutten.

Made an appointment with a neurologist. $100 for the visit alone! I imagine that they'll probably want to do a CT Scan or a MRI, I'm sure that won't be less than $200.

Add that to the $295 I blew yesterday on them & to the more or less $600 I've spent the past month or so.


Although times are tough, money is not really the problem (although I have really felt it this month).

thanks, but yeah, it's zapped all the Christmas spirit right out of me.

It's for today at 3:30pm, but I spoke to my old vet, which I lost contact with when he & we moved. He also has a friend who is a neurologist & I may end up going to see him. I'm pretty sure with them I can work something out as far as money goes.

Also, the one I have an appointment with today JUST graduated, my wife says she'd prefer someone with more experience.

Update:

Took Lears to the neurologist today. He did a bunch of test & Lears has almost no feeling in his rear right leg & the right side of his face. His right eye is also nonresponsive to light or touch. We ran blood test to check a a number of infections that may cause this. If that all comes back clean then we're talking the big-BIG bucks (not that the $450 I blew on him today is chump change) with MRi's, CT Scans & nerve biopsies, so lets see what happens, I'll crosse that bridge when I get to it.

As of right now Doc says that he's not in any pain & seems alert & happy. I'll probably won't get any news till monday, so thanks for caring guys & have a merry Christmas.

well, they both have feline lukemia. Lears came back positive & we immediately tested his brother & he's got it too. They think that the mother probably had it & they were born with it, they haven't had any contact with any other cats since I got them.

the lukemia is what is causing Lears' neuro problem. Not really the Christmas present I was hoping for.

The vet tells me that he is not i pain & seems very happy. So as long as he is not suffering we will try to give him the best life we can. At least now we know what is wrong with him & we can prepare for the future.

yeah, thats exactly what we plan to do.