we are having to give jericho away tomorrow. apparently my asthma just cant handle it. i had a bad asthma attack monday night and its a miracle im alive. the doctors said he didnt help and we have to find him a new home. im completely devastated. i feel like im giving my child up for adoption. hes going to the best home i could ask for and i know he will get the life he deserves and all the love in the world, but its killing me inside.
i guess i just need help with how to deal. i cant believe im going home to an empty house tomorrow and that he wont be there to greet me when i wake up or get home from work. i dont get to say goodbye and i dont know when ill be able to see him again since he is going to be 2 hours away. its really hard for me to wrap my head around it all. im having to change my whole lifestyle and now i have to get rid of him on top of everything. my boyfriend is tore up over and im feeling a ton of guilt about bringing him into our home and now 4 months later having to give him away. i just dont want him to think i abandoned him. i really hope he understands.
i guess i just need help with how to deal. i cant believe im going home to an empty house tomorrow and that he wont be there to greet me when i wake up or get home from work. i dont get to say goodbye and i dont know when ill be able to see him again since he is going to be 2 hours away. its really hard for me to wrap my head around it all. im having to change my whole lifestyle and now i have to get rid of him on top of everything. my boyfriend is tore up over and im feeling a ton of guilt about bringing him into our home and now 4 months later having to give him away. i just dont want him to think i abandoned him. i really hope he understands.