So on saturday afternoon i noticed a huge lump on my cats head in between his eyes he also had nasal discharge and runny eye. It looked as he was in a cartoon and someone hit him in the head. He did not suffer any trauma. I rushed him to Animal ER. They stated that he had a infection. They looked at him for 2 mins, gave antibiotic and charged me 128.00. He then did not get any better. It continued to get worse everyday. Monday morning his nose started running blood, It was not alot. I continued to give him antibiotic and benadryl twice daily. Well tuesday morning i woke up and his nose and paw and my carpet where covered in blood. Red blood, straight blood. It was horrible. His eyes was swollen shut, and he was very lathargic and not eating and drinking. I called emergency vet again and they said that she believed it was a tumor if it was getting worse. I then researched for hours about the sinus cancer. He has ALL symptoms. I took him in and it was true that is what is was. I was devastated. He was 16 years old and my baby, my bestfriend. I had to make the decision to end his suffering or continue his suffering. I looked at him he was horrible. I made the choice to end his suffering. They took him still wrapped in his blanket and put him to sleep. They said he went very very quick and he was at peace. I keep playing in my head, Did i make the right decision?, Did he feel anything? Was he mad at me? did he know what was going on?. I cant stop crying. I did get him cremated and his ashes will be returned to me. That is what felt right. If he couldnt physically be with me i wanted his remains with me. Lastnite i made a wall of rememberance for my baby. They gave me a Rainbow Bridge Poem. I hung that and put picks up in frames around it. He was my bestfriend and one of my kids. No other animal will be able to touch my heart like he did. I will always miss you poppie. You are one of a kind and i am so crushed that you are nolonger with me and the kids. We love you. Not a moment passes that i dont miss you. I will keep you in my bedroom where you would sleep day in and day out. you will stay near my bed and pillow. I love you baby and hope Rainbow Bridge is awesome. Till we meet again. Your mommy!!!!!! 
, sweetie.
your post made my eyes watery..
Please don't second guess yourself. Our kitties rely on us to make the best decisions for us and that's what you did. For what it's worth, I truly admire the courage, compassion and it took to let your precious kitty go. May he RIP. 
