Hardest Day of my life...... 12/14/2010

So on saturday afternoon i noticed a huge lump on my cats head in between his eyes he also had nasal discharge and runny eye. It looked as he was in a cartoon and someone hit him in the head. He did not suffer any trauma. I rushed him to Animal ER. They stated that he had a infection. They looked at him for 2 mins, gave antibiotic and charged me 128.00. He then did not get any better. It continued to get worse everyday. Monday morning his nose started running blood, It was not alot. I continued to give him antibiotic and benadryl twice daily. Well tuesday morning i woke up and his nose and paw and my carpet where covered in blood. Red blood, straight blood. It was horrible. His eyes was swollen shut, and he was very lathargic and not eating and drinking. I called emergency vet again and they said that she believed it was a tumor if it was getting worse. I then researched for hours about the sinus cancer. He has ALL symptoms. I took him in and it was true that is what is was. I was devastated. He was 16 years old and my baby, my bestfriend. I had to make the decision to end his suffering or continue his suffering. I looked at him he was horrible. I made the choice to end his suffering. They took him still wrapped in his blanket and put him to sleep. They said he went very very quick and he was at peace. I keep playing in my head, Did i make the right decision?, Did he feel anything? Was he mad at me? did he know what was going on?. I cant stop crying. I did get him cremated and his ashes will be returned to me. That is what felt right. If he couldnt physically be with me i wanted his remains with me. Lastnite i made a wall of rememberance for my baby. They gave me a Rainbow Bridge Poem. I hung that and put picks up in frames around it. He was my bestfriend and one of my kids. No other animal will be able to touch my heart like he did. I will always miss you poppie. You are one of a kind and i am so crushed that you are nolonger with me and the kids. We love you. Not a moment passes that i dont miss you. I will keep you in my bedroom where you would sleep day in and day out. you will stay near my bed and pillow. I love you baby and hope Rainbow Bridge is awesome. Till we meet again. Your mommy!!!!!!

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know how much it hurts believe me.

I'm very sorry for your loss. It hurts so much when we lose our beloved fur babies. , sweetie.

I am so sorry for your loss. I don't think he is mad with you, I think he thanks you for helping him. He was in so much pain and so ready to cross over...It is incredibly difficult to lose them RIP sweet baby

I'm so sorry that this had to happen to you, it sounds awful. RIP sweet Poppie. Play happily over the Rainbow Bridge.

Because you love him so much, you set him free. Don't try to second guess yourself. You did the best thing for him and now he is painfree at the Rainbow Bridge.

I'm so sorry, Brittany. Sinus cancer in kitties is hard to treat, since it usually isn't diagnosed early enough because the symptoms aren't noticeable till the cancer has progressed to the later stages. You made the right decision, the kindest decision, to end Poppie's suffering. I'm sure he's thankful for that. He couldn't have been healed here, but I believe he was young and healthy again the instant he crossed. He won't forget you and all the years he shared with you, and you will see him again. Bless the vet for giving you a copy of the Rainbow Bridge story -- it's very comforting. The wall of remembrance you've already made for Poppie is a lovely memorial and will help. But what I've found helps the most is keeping in mind that we will see our furangels again. And remembering them as they were when they were young and healthy, and picturing them playing at the Bridge.

Hugs,

Cindy

your post made my eyes watery..

I'm so sorry that you lost your well loved kitty. It sounds like a really awful experience, for you and him. You did the best thing, the kindest and most loving thing, to end his suffering. He knows you did right by him.

Please accept my sincere sympathy at the loss of your dear poppie.


Robin

Originally Posted by EddieEM

your post made my eyes watery..

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Same here. I am so incredibly sorry for the loss of your beloved baby. Rest in peace little one.

I'm so sorry for your loss. Please don't second guess yourself. Our kitties rely on us to make the best decisions for us and that's what you did. For what it's worth, I truly admire the courage, compassion and it took to let your precious kitty go. May he RIP.

I am so sorry for the loss of sweet Poppie. His age is proof of the wonderful care you gave him his whole life.

You two had something special that will transcend time and place. He is your heart kitty now.

God bless and RIP sweet Poppie, till you are together again.

Oh the poor baby, i'm so sorry From the sound of things you did your baby a favour by not letting him suffer

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