General update on life, divorce, kitties.

I haven't been able to get online very often. I know a few of you have been worried about me and I can't find my earlier thread to update.

I am still going through the divorce process. Right now I'm still homeless, though I'm staying at one place fairly frequently, but still having to find alternate roofs some nights.

I'm barely getting enough hours at work to feed myself and try to pay off some debts. I still can't have my cats with me. They are staying with my mother at the moment. I was able to see them yesterday and the poor babies tried to climb into the car with me (which considering how much they dislike car rides should tell you something). They are in pretty good general health, but I've gotten behind on getting them their flea medication since I lost it in the move, and now they have fleas. Which of course also probably means they have tapeworms. But I can't afford to buy them more drops at the moment so they'll have to do the best they can for right now. Next pay day they'll get vetted.

Construction on my "apartment" has been stalled. There were a few complications as well as illnesses that have stalled us out for right now but we did go price things today and hopefully we should be able to get everything we need at once and save some extra on the materials. Work should begin again next week in earnest.

I have just gotten over being very very ill. I had strep throat and it led to pneumonia. I couldn't get to the doctor until it got very very bad, so I ended up missing several days of work as well as ending up with a hefty medical bill.

All in all, situation not much improved.

My emotional state -- well, now I'm just angry. I'm upset and frustrated and generally mad as H311 at him for being such a thoughtless, immature, selfish, uncaring, cold, stubborn, stupid childish mama's boy.

It's going a long way towards getting me through each day.

Now, if only I could do something about this invisible cloud of pheremones that seems to be following me around I'll be good. I've had 15 or 20 "invitations" from men (and a few women) to come have a good time. --sigh-- I can't handle this.

Anyway, your vibes have gone a long way and I appreciate it. Thanks guys, and I hope you're all doing well. I'll try to be back soon but no promises.

Awww hun I'm so sorry, I'm glad your feeling better and can start working on the apartment again soon

Make sure you get everything your entitled to from your ex and remember things will get better, I know it doesn't seem it but it will xx

Thinking of you hun, and sending vibes that your situation will start to improve soon.

I hope things will get better for you and that you'll be able to get the apartment finished. And I hope your furkids can get to be with you again soon.

Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry all this has been dumped on you. I wish I had some amazing words of wisdom that would make everything better. IMO, getting to the anger stage is a big step (honestly, that's what gets me thru the day sometimes, and my situation isn't nearly as bad as your's). As aj said, get everything you can from the ex; not to sound vindictive, but make him hurt (well, that did sound vindictive, didn't it?)
It truly sounds as if you have a good head on your shoulders and are doing your best to get thru this. Please, please take care of yourself; I hope you can get your babies back soon.

I was just thinking of you last night! Glad to see you checking in, but I'm so sorry that you're having to go through all this. Take care of yourself and get feeling better. All those emotions you're feeling are totally normal and part of the grieving process. It *will* get better, eventhough it seems so overwhelming at the moment.

I was wondering where you were and how things were going. I am sorry to hear of the problems and I hope they get sorted out soon. It is good to know that your kitties are in a safe place, even if they do have fleas! Good vibes for an improvement all round very soon.

I've been worried about you too - and apparently for good reason. I am SO sorry you got so sick! What a nightmare!

that EVERYTHING turns around, you feel COMPELETELY better, and you're back to work on the apartment with everything you need!

When it rains it pours. I went through a horrible divorce years ago that left me almost homeless. My 6 cats and I went through a real tough time for 8 months. I didn't think there was a light at the end of the tunnel. The only thing that kept me focused was my responsibilities to my cats cause they were all I had left. I had a job that didn't pay enough to pay the bills and if it wasn't for a couple friends of mine I would have been in the streets. No matter how hard it got I had to stay positive and have faith that everything would work out for the best. Eventually everything did work out for the best and there was a shinning light at the end of the tunnel. Sending you lots of positive energy

I'm glad to hear from you. I hope things get better really soon.

Thanks for the update. I'm so sorry you got sick and had to put projects on hold. I hope you're better now though and on your way to continuing on the apartment! Best wishes!!

Thank you. All the vibes and well wishes honestly have me crying right now.

Today was a bad day. My anger boiled over and I just lost it. I called my ex and screamed at him. I mean seriously. He left me. Why hasn't he gotten the papers together yet? I can't get any financial assistance from the state or from the college until we're OFFICIALLY divorced. I've lost about 30 pounds since he told me, and a lot of it is stress but at least ten lbs are from not knowing when I'll get my next meal. So I called him and yelled at him to get off his A$$ and get the paperwork DONE.

He wants out? Fine. I'll give it to him. But he's going to pay for the divorce and he's going to get it done SOON. Or I'll kill him. Pure and simple.

Oh honey, sometimes yelling at someone makes us feel so much better (I know, trust me, I know). I'm glad you were able to get it out.
One bit of advice: please don't kill him, as much as you'd like to. You have your fur-babies to think about.
When you take him for everything he has, don't forget to include enough for a new wardrobe. (just trying to get you to smile, dear).
Seriously, don't let him stall the divorce. My niece left her husband and 3 sons over 2 years ago, and they're still not divorced because she keeps filing ridiculous motions for everything she can think of (she doesn't want to pay him alimony, which will obviously start once the divorce is final). Like I keep telling my 'nephew' "hit her in the wallet; that's where it's going to hurt her the most."
The best revenge is a life well-lived. I know you're hurt and angry and homicidal right now; things will get better. It's obvious you're a strong woman who can take care of herself. Don't ever forget that. And at this point, don't be afraid to ask for a hand-out until you get on your feet--that's what shelters, the Salvation Army, churches, etc.are for, to help you when you need it.
I truly wish you all the best; just hang on.