We said goodbye to our Reggie today - Page 2

Thank you I am trying to be easy on myself and the feelings of sadness come and go throughout the day. I am sitting here at work thinking about how I am going to walk through the door after work and he is not going to be there and I am not sure how I am going to react. That alone causes this feeling of uneasiness. We have walked through the door since his passing and we are slowly getting "used to" the idea that he is not going to be there, but it's so incredibly difficult. I just want to see him sitting there waiting for me to pick up, throw him over my shoulder and love on.

I know we gave him the absolute best medical care to fight his liver disease, and we can rest a little easier that he was given the best chance to heal. But we miss him so much. You all know the feeling, I don't have to tell you.

It's hard not thinking about that last day when Reggie left us. You'd think after 9 amazing and joyous years we spent with him that I could not think about the one day that was so dark. I woke up today telling myself that I was going to focus on all the happy times we shared together, but it's still very difficult to do. I know it won't always be like this, but right now my heart is still in pain.

We are slowly healing from the loss of our Reggie, although we will never "get over" it. As odd as it seems, I feel more at ease when I am at home with my wife and our other cat Kylah. I can feel Reggie's spirit permeate throughout the house and it brings me comfort. I wish I could pick him up and love him one more time, but I know he has moved on. So I am trying to use his life as an inspiration for me to live the best life I can and be there for others as much as possible. I know Reggie would have wanted us to keep living our lives to the fullest, just as he did every day.

I wanted to share some more pictures of Reggie and some new pictures of our sweet Kylah - I am glad I can look at pictures of my sweet Reggie and smile, although seeing them does make my heart heavy. But I am just so proud of the full life he lived and feel so blessed to have known him that it brings me more joy than pain to share these with everyone else. He was the happiest cat I'd ever known in my life and made everyone he met smile. I will continue to remember and honor Reggie in that way and will always miss him.

Here is the link to some pictures I uploaded this morning: http://www.flickr.com/photos/47365351@N03/...28752/lightbox/

The last picture was when we discovered that he LOVED to chew on ribbon. So we had to take all the bows and ribbon off the presents. We never got to put bows or ribbon on gifts, but that was just a reminder of our sweet Reggie and how unique he was.

Yes, that table pic is one of my favorites too.

Kylah is doing well, as well as we can hope for. Thank you for asking about her

She is eating, being social and doing all the "normal" stuff. She is definitely being more "needy" but we expected that. Reggie was away at the hospital for 9 days before coming back home, so that might have allowed her to adjust to him not being there prior to him passing. I am glad that she got to see him one last time before we passed away. She still meows and we can tell she is looking for him since she always instigated the nightly chasings, which is sad to hear. But we know we will pull through as a family.

I wanted to say thank you again for the kind words. Even though I don't have the relationships on here that some others do, I wanted to provide an update, if at least to give others some hope that things get better.

It's been almost three weeks since we lost Reggie and we are naturally still devastated by his loss. We have "come to terms" that he is gone and won't be waiting for us when we come home from work or the gym, but we still crave his physical presence and the happiness he brought into our home. The feelings of guilt have subsided, more or less. It's just been a one day at a time approach for us. Some days are better than others. We still feel like we are just going through the motions, but we are slowly healing.

Our other cat Kylah is doing well and we are giving her all the attention she wants. We are lucky to have her during this difficult time. She still meows for her brother, which is sad for us, but she is pulling through.

I hope others who have lost a pet and are still hurting will read this and know that things get better, albeit slowly. Take care.