Twice in one year...an update.

Well, I spent a good part of Saturday in the emergency room. The end result was I miscarried. Again.

You know, my first miscarriage in March wasn't that traumatic. I found out I was pregnant and miscarried 10 days later so I was still in shock from finding out I WAS pregnant that suddenly losing it was just an after shock of sorts. Don't know if that makes sense or not. It was all an emotional rollercoaster.

This time, we tried and were prepared mentally. We saw the ultrasound, and there was definitely a baby. The doctor said everything looked good. We started cleaning out the room that was to be the nursery, started making plans to drywall and insulate it. I even started looking at different nursery themes. We already started picking up things at yard sales and I have 3 bags of baby clothes that SIL gathered for me. I even started going through names for cripes sake.

Now, DH is starting to talk about when we "try again". Honestly, I don't know if I can. Don't get me wrong...he would never pressure me or pull a guilt trip. But, I know he wants a child. So do I. But I don't know if I can go through this again.

Maybe I am just too old. I mean, I'm 40 and I would have been 41 when the baby was born. Maybe my body just can't handle carrying a baby. Or maybe this is God's way of telling me it's not a good idea. Who knows. I'm just rambling.

Anyway, thanks for all your vibes. They meant a lot to me.

I am so sorry.

I'm so very sorry for your loss, hun. There are no words to ease this for you. From someone who was never able to have kids, I do understand what you're feeling. Talking about it is good therapy. I do hope it's in God's plan for you to be a mother. You will make a wonderful mama.

Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry. Wish I had some words of wisdom to make it all better. (((HUGS)))

I am so sorry to hear this. Please know I will keep you in my prayers. One never knows though what is down the road. I know of someone who had two miscarriages and adopted a child. Then they got pregnant again and everything went fine.

Many good vibes coming to you.

God bless.

I am so sorry to hear that. It must be one of the most difficult things to go through. You are in my thoughts.

I am very sorry to hear this.

I am so sorry

Cheryl

I am thinking of you sweetheart and am so incredibly sorry to read this. A big to you.

I am so sorry. Do what feels good for you as to whether to get pregnant again.

Oh hon, I am so very sorry to hear this. *hugs* I know that comfort right now will be difficult for you, so I'm offering vibes and prayers.

And no matter what choice you make (whether to try again or find other avenues), know you'll be making the best choice for you and your DH.

oh, Hope I am so very, very sorry

I am so sorry. Do they know why?

Awwww Hope i am so sorry to hear this

thinking of you

I am so sorry....my heart goes out to you.

I am so sorry I have also had 2 miscarriages. I was devastated after the last one. I then adopted. My neighbour had 3 miscarriages then went on to have 5 healthy boys. Trying again is hard decision to make. You need to give yourself some time to heal.

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know nothing we say can change how you feel, but I have had 5 miscarriages (one ectopic) so I know what you are going through.

(((((hugs)))))

I am so very sorry.

Very sorry to hear this

My gosh, I'm so sorry, I remember the last one too. And to be preparing and everything...

Your feelings and DHs will be different regarding this...men want to "fix" things, and his way of "fixing" it is probably just to try again. So he's not trying to be insensitive. We are more emotional, usually, and really want to mull it over first. My best to both of you.