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post #1 of 15
9/26/10 at 9:43am
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It's been almost exactly a month since I lost Cookie. For a while it did get better but I have been missing her so much the last few days. She was only 6 years old and we had been best friends since the day I found her at the adoption center. My husband could be home all day and she'd spend all day sleeping in the closet, but as soon as I got home she'd run to the door and sit with me all night.

Five weeks ago Cookie started vomiting. The next day she started hiding under the bed and refused to eat. I took her to the vet right after work on Monday. They gave her an anti-emetic and some fluids and sent her home. I made her a nice nest in my room and spent as much time as possible cuddling with her and trying to get her to eat...I even cooked her some bacon But, she still refused and I took her in to the vet early Wednesday morning for them to force feed her and monitor her overnight. That evening they said she was tolerating the food well and that she could come home Thursday at 3. As I was getting ready to pick her up, the vet called...she had thrown up a lot of food...it was time for a series of barium x-rays. By evening the barium had slowly moved through her small intestine. During the night she vomited up the barium and they decided the best thing would be to do exploratory surgery at noon on Friday. At one the vet called...they found an intussusception. They repaired it, but the rest of her intestines were very inflamed...we'd have to wait and see. 40 minutes later she went into shock and was gone. All week I'd had a bad feeling. The first night she was sick she laid in bed with me and I took a picture of her with my phone. It didn't turn out very well so I took another...just in case it was the last one I ever took of her...six days later she was gone.

I fed her the best food and used the best cat litter so that I would have many years with her and then I lose her so young to something that's pretty rare. People say "it's just a cat" and "it's nice you have the other two" but it's just not the same. I miss her like crazy right now but not many people want to talk about the story of your cat. I'm so glad that I got to have her for a little while though. No matter how many cats I have she will always be my best friend. Thanks for reading my rambling...I needed to get that out
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post #2 of 15
9/26/10 at 9:54am
You have found a place here where there are people who understand and are happy to listen to you talk about your baby. There is no set amount of time someone is going to grieve after a loss. Our cats are a member of our family and losing a family member hurts. Having other family members to love on and take care is not a replacement for the family member you have lost. Hugs to you during this difficult time. Unfortunately some people do not have pets or just do not understand that they are part of your family just like your human members.

I had to put down one of my cats last month unexpectedly due to a stroke. I have other cats too. I love my other cats dearly and they have in their own way helped me grieve. However, no one will replace Claude's place in my heart. I am slowly getting to the point where it is easier and easier to remember the fun times without falling apart. However, there are still times when I am in tears while I am showering because was a water kitty.

Even though your baby will always have a place in your heart the grief does lessen. Only you can go through all the stages you need to go through to greive for your baby. Use this forum as your support system and don't let the people who don't understand make things worse. It is their loss that they do not know the love involved with having a pet. Hang in there things will get easier.
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post #3 of 15
9/26/10 at 9:58am
I'm so terribly sorry for your loss of your beloved Cookie. It's difficult enough when they've had a good long life, but oh, so young. Cry to us and we will cry with you. We understand.

Cookie
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post #4 of 15
9/27/10 at 3:01am
You certainly were a wonderful mom to Cookie.

It is always so hard to accept when our furkids go so early. Thank goodness she had someone as attentive as you to tend to her when she was ill. Imagine if you were not in her life. Who knows how she would have been treated.

I am sure she is at the Bridge, touching noses with her new found friends. I find that the pain you are feeling will ebb and flow. That is how it happens to me. Some times for days, I am ok. Then a bit longer, when you think you should be feeling better, it comes back.

Take comfort in the fact she knew she was loved and returned it full to you.

God bless you and sweet Cookie, your kitty.
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post #5 of 15
9/27/10 at 6:19am
I truly feel sorry for those who say "It is just a cat." for they will never know the true, unconditional love that a cat can give. Rest in peace Cookie, and may she live forever in your heart.
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post #6 of 15
9/27/10 at 9:39am
My condolences. Around here none of our fur babies are "just cats", and we can all understand your grief. RIP, Cookie.
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post #7 of 15
9/28/10 at 8:49am
I am so sorry for your loss of Cookie. I lost my soul-cat Joey on 12/18/09. I began a journal, and I still find myself needing to post entries into it. In fact, you will see that I cannot bear to remove his pic from my siggy - someday, but not yet.
You certainly did above and beyond in taking care of Cookie, and she knew that. Joey was only 5 He had a neurological incident and there was no chance of improvement - I still feel stunned; I had taken the credit card with me, anticipating tests and possibly surgery, but never, never daring to even remotely consider the final alternative.
I know that Cookie has joined our other RB kitties, playing happily over the Bridge. They can't suffer anymore; they are in the company of angels.
It is we earthlings who must deal with the grief, and so I send you mega prayers of comfort and healing during these difficult moments. Remember that you now have a TCS family here to support you
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post #8 of 15
9/28/10 at 6:24pm
I am sorry for your loss and understand your grief.
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post #9 of 15
9/29/10 at 11:41am
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Thank you all for your kind words. It helps to know that there are people who love their animals as much as I love mine. I used to joke with my husband that Cookie was my best friend but I wasn't completely kidding. I'm a shy person and relate much better to animals than people. I love the idea that Cookie is happily at the bridge napping in the sun and batting her favorite toy (q-tips) around. In the week that she was sick I kept telling myself she was going to be ok...but I didn't really believe it. I realized that she is ok now...just not in the way that I wanted.
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post #10 of 15
10/1/10 at 10:56pm
Your words bring tears to my eyes - you love your precious Cookie so much, that you want what's best for her, no matter the horrible price that your heart has to pay - THAT is TRUE LOVE
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post #11 of 15
10/2/10 at 4:02am
You have my deepest sympathies for your loss of Cookie. Thank you for sharing the pics of her--she was such a beauty. And, you're right at home here in feeling such love for Cookie, your best friend. It's hard to say goodbye to your heartkitty and it's pain I wouldn't wish on anyone.

I'm with you--I'm more comfortable around my cats and my dog than I am with people. I feel sorry for those people who never experience the special, unconditional love our animals give us.

Sending hugs and good thoughts for you, and Cookie. She's a happy girl at the Bridge with our kitty angels.
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post #12 of 15
10/2/10 at 8:59am
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Originally Posted by natlay View Post

I fed her the best food and used the best cat litter so that I would have many years with her and then I lose her so young to something that's pretty rare. People say "it's just a cat" and "it's nice you have the other two" but it's just not the same. I miss her like crazy right now but not many people want to talk about the story of your cat. I'm so glad that I got to have her for a little while though. No matter how many cats I have she will always be my best friend. Thanks for reading my rambling...I needed to get that out
People who tell you it's just a cat don't understand, and maybe they have never lost a pet themselves. You have found the right place and the right people. We all know what you're going through and how painful this time is.

R.I.P. sweet little Cookie
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post #13 of 15
10/2/10 at 6:24pm
In tears for you and your loss, I understand the grief and you can surely cry to us and we will cry with you like the other poster said. I lost my Boo back in August and I still hurt and think of him every day.

I am truly so sorry for your loss. You were a very attentive and loving mum *hug*
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post #14 of 15
10/6/10 at 5:24am
I love this closeup picture of Cookie. Her eyes are beautiful. I hope you are beginning to feel better. Hugs.
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post #15 of 15
10/6/10 at 12:33pm
Oh my goodness, isn't she gorgeous!!

I'm so sorry for your loss And i i hate it when people say "It's just a cat" as well. When they enter our homes they instantly become part of the family

RIP Cookie

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