Please any help-cant sleep/kitten who died

Ok its almost 5 pm friday...I have been up since thursday around 7 am.

I am taking this loss so damn hard cause I feel if i had been awake if nothing else it wouldnt have gotten run over again and I could have euthed it sooner. I keep looking out to check for the kittens but have not had one sight of them. I ws supposed to go to the store(in sense I wanted to so it was over with and had fresh stufff)

This is one of the hardest ones cause of the amount of pain he was in. I normaly get sad but I think a combo of this and my time of month coming is just a horrible combo.

Have no cable and been watching movies on youtube. I am out of ideas. please anything? benadryl just made me drunk feeling.

Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry... There is NOTHING more you could have done. I know it's easier said than done, but please try not to beat yourself up over it.

How about a nice bubble bath? Maybe curl up and read a book?

I'm so sorry for your loss, but the pain will get better. I know this from experience, unfortunately.

You're grieving, and grief is exactly the same thing whether the loss is a person or an animal. You need to allow yourself to go through this painful period and don't try to rush through it.

I also know what you're feeling. You have to allow yourself to feel this pain. I'm sorry,but it will get easier--with time. You can't rush the grief or try to deny it. The folks on this site are a fantastic support system!! If you like to write, then write down your feelings, talk to a friend who understands and have a good, long cry...tears are wonderfully healing

Passed out around 11 pm last night and just getting up now so lots to get caught up on for my cats. husband took care of dog and watching trap(I stuck it in backyard very hidden and told him when he went to sleep to just hit the plate and leave it there but if he saw kittens wake me up when he went to sleep.

Think my major thinking was if I go to sleep and another dies its all cause i wasnt up with trap set... i see the flaw there now but at time it made sense. I cant stay up 5 days in row to get it i know

Feel much better as I know thankfully he was found and able to go to sleep without hours more of pain and what not...thanks guys