I was going to wait to write this after work today, but want to do it now while it's still fresh in my memory.
The grief over Bella's death has been hitting me in waves. I've felt like I was drowning in it. It's been exhausting to try to deal with it all. On top of all of it is that today is the four year anniversary of my mom's death.
So last night I laid in bed, again tossing and turning and reaching for all the spaces that Bella used to fill next to me. I finally drifted into another unsettled sleep and received a visit.
I was walking alone in the dark, somewhere outside. I was looking and calling for my sweet Bella. I was so anxious; I didn't want her to be left alone in the darkness, afraid and hungry. The darkness began to lighten and a soft mist settled all around me. In the distance I could see someone coming closer to me. I couldn't recognize the person until she was right in front of me.
It was my mom! And she was holding my sweet little Bella!!
I just felt such peace wash over me. My mom said something then that I never want to forget, "Look who's come to live with me"
That was all. I woke up crying. My heart is still racing. How can anyone ever doubt that there is love and life after death? I know that there is no time on the other side, but my mom picked this night to visit me and bring Bella along. They were the only two in this world that I had a soul to soul connection with. I never thought, in my waking life, that they would find each other. My love for them in life was so powerful. The love just gained strength after their deaths. I just wish everyone who has ever lost a piece of their heart could have such a peaceful visit. Sincerely to All, Cheryl
The grief over Bella's death has been hitting me in waves. I've felt like I was drowning in it. It's been exhausting to try to deal with it all. On top of all of it is that today is the four year anniversary of my mom's death.
So last night I laid in bed, again tossing and turning and reaching for all the spaces that Bella used to fill next to me. I finally drifted into another unsettled sleep and received a visit.
I was walking alone in the dark, somewhere outside. I was looking and calling for my sweet Bella. I was so anxious; I didn't want her to be left alone in the darkness, afraid and hungry. The darkness began to lighten and a soft mist settled all around me. In the distance I could see someone coming closer to me. I couldn't recognize the person until she was right in front of me.
It was my mom! And she was holding my sweet little Bella!!
I just felt such peace wash over me. My mom said something then that I never want to forget, "Look who's come to live with me"
That was all. I woke up crying. My heart is still racing. How can anyone ever doubt that there is love and life after death? I know that there is no time on the other side, but my mom picked this night to visit me and bring Bella along. They were the only two in this world that I had a soul to soul connection with. I never thought, in my waking life, that they would find each other. My love for them in life was so powerful. The love just gained strength after their deaths. I just wish everyone who has ever lost a piece of their heart could have such a peaceful visit. Sincerely to All, Cheryl
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