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My precious baby FAng

post #1 of 31
9/4/10 at 8:42am
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HE was fine this morning, and then he couldn't walk, dragging the hind legs. we went to ER and she said she was 99% sure he had a saddle thombsus, and the prognosis was poor. He was in pain. I am so sad, my poor fang, I loved him so much. I though maybe he had fallen, or sprained something. I feel so guilty. HE was not showing any symptoms, except he stopped running down the basement steps when I would go down. he would wait at the top for me. I just thought he was getting old and tired, did not give it a thought to take him to the vet then. he was eating, drinking, everything was normal for him.
He was only 6 years old. HE was a resue cat and lived outside during a very severe winter when he was young. My poor baby. I loved him so much. HE was so sweet, he would groomnhis brothers. I miss him. my head hurts from crying so much.
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post #2 of 31
9/4/10 at 8:55am
I am so sorry for your loss. Fang was a beauty. I hope in time your memories will bring you gladness. Fang, rest in peace. You were a loved cat.
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post #3 of 31
9/4/10 at 8:55am
Aww sweetie I am soo, soo sorry for your loss of Fang.
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post #4 of 31
9/4/10 at 10:16am
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I've been reading on the HCM. It usually goes undiagnosed. I did notice sublte symptoms now that I know what they are. HE appeared healthy up until he threw the clot. I can't stop crying. I wish I had noticed, wish I had taken him to the vet. I didn't know. he was only 6. I loved him so much.
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post #5 of 31
9/4/10 at 10:20am
You had no way to know. Please stop beating yourself over the head. Try to remember you gave him a happy life for the time he lived with you. It is so so hard when something like this happens suddenly. I lost my soulmate Max to acute kidney failure. It was awful. Just remember we are here for you. PM if I can help you any way. Hugs.
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post #6 of 31
9/4/10 at 10:41am
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grooming his brothers. He always did that, and they loved it.
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post #7 of 31
9/4/10 at 10:43am
Way too young too cross!

Dottie's baby Truman was only about 6 when that happened to him. We fought it for a month, but he just wasn't getting better, and he was really miserable. If I knew then what I know now, I would have done the kind thing for him almost immediately and save him a lot of suffering and frustration.
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post #8 of 31
9/4/10 at 11:37am
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the vet painted a rather bleak picture since it was both legs. I thought about the whole thing, and thought this was the best to do. IT seems that HCM can go undetected unitl something like this happens. He had teeth removed in 07, so I know he had a heart workup then before they put him under for anesthesia.
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post #9 of 31
9/4/10 at 12:19pm
Oh, honey. I am SOOOO sorry! RIP, sweet Fang!
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post #10 of 31
9/4/10 at 12:19pm
My daughter lost her cat Eddie to this suddenly as well. So, be aware that you did the right thing for Fang.

What a beautiful boy he was.

I hope in time you can look back with a smile. Many hugs to you. Don't beat yourself up. These things happen. It was from nothing you did or didn't do.

Fang knows that and he knows how very much he was loved. It is obvious he had a good, safe home.

God Bless you.
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post #11 of 31
9/4/10 at 12:50pm
I'm SO sorry. Fang was a beautiful boy, and now he's no longer in pain, and can use his legs again, so at least he's happy to be over the bridge. I'ts just such a shock when it's so sudden and you don't have time to prepare. Please don't blame yourself. It sounds like something very hard to treat, even if you had been able to detect any symptoms of it coming. Rest in peace, beloved Fang.
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post #12 of 31
9/4/10 at 3:27pm
i'm so sorry! he was so young & handsome
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post #13 of 31
9/4/10 at 4:34pm
I'm so sorry for your loss of Fang, he was gone too soon. Please know that he was loved not only by you but by us here on TCS too. R.I.P. Fang

Jackz, Jazzy & Ginga.
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post #14 of 31
9/4/10 at 4:42pm
He was such a beautiful boy. Play happily over the Rainbow Bridge, Fang.
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post #15 of 31
9/4/10 at 4:55pm
Fang was gorgeous and very well loved. I am so sorry for your loss.
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post #16 of 31
9/4/10 at 7:29pm
I'm so sorry.
Fang was such a handsome boy, and clearly a very loved an happy cat.
R.I.P Fang
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post #17 of 31
9/5/10 at 8:11pm
Oh, poor Fang, and poor you! I'm so sorry for your loss.
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post #18 of 31
9/6/10 at 3:40pm
What a gorgeous boy he was... I too am so sorry sweetheart. Rest in peace darling Fang.
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post #19 of 31
9/8/10 at 3:22am
I'm so sorry Poor Fang was still a baby at 6 years old

Have a wonderful time at the Bridge you handsome boy

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post #20 of 31
9/8/10 at 9:30pm
I'm so sorry. He was a beautiful boy...
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post #21 of 31
9/10/10 at 5:24am
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tomorrow will be a week, and it feels like an hour. Haven't skipped crying several times each day. I am worried about my other two. Fang was the glue. He groomed them both, they loved him. they were never that close with each other, and any head bumping between them was with Fang in the middle. Now they pass each other without even a sniff. they don't want to eat next to each other, and spike doesn't come into the bedroom to remind us to get out of bed. Fang was talker, and it is very quiet now. I try to distract myself, but alway end up bawling, no matter what I am doing, or where I am. I miss him so much, and I feel so guilty, and helpless, and angry. It is so painful. My heart hurts.
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post #22 of 31
9/10/10 at 4:30pm
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Originally Posted by gailuvscats View Post
tomorrow will be a week, and it feels like an hour. Haven't skipped crying several times each day. I am worried about my other two. Fang was the glue. He groomed them both, they loved him. they were never that close with each other, and any head bumping between them was with Fang in the middle. Now they pass each other without even a sniff. they don't want to eat next to each other, and spike doesn't come into the bedroom to remind us to get out of bed. Fang was talker, and it is very quiet now. I try to distract myself, but alway end up bawling, no matter what I am doing, or where I am. I miss him so much, and I feel so guilty, and helpless, and angry. It is so painful. My heart hurts.
For the pain.
I am so sorry to read about Fang. There was nothing you could have done. You do know now what to look for and maybe that's why he came to you. I am sorry he went so young and left your heart broken
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post #23 of 31
9/10/10 at 5:28pm
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Originally Posted by gailuvscats View Post
tomorrow will be a week, and it feels like an hour. Haven't skipped crying several times each day. I am worried about my other two. Fang was the glue. He groomed them both, they loved him. they were never that close with each other, and any head bumping between them was with Fang in the middle. Now they pass each other without even a sniff. they don't want to eat next to each other, and spike doesn't come into the bedroom to remind us to get out of bed. Fang was talker, and it is very quiet now. I try to distract myself, but alway end up bawling, no matter what I am doing, or where I am. I miss him so much, and I feel so guilty, and helpless, and angry. It is so painful. My heart hurts.
How sad for you - Joey was only 5 - like Fang, taken in the prime of life I kept a "Losing Joey" diary for awhile, and I read it when I get a crying jag (so it gets read alot). I understand the bleak, dreary days. Alex sleeps with me; Kyle follows me; Todd watches me cook dinner; Andrea likes to be the cop/judge; JC is still JC; Kelli likes the same toys as Joey - put them all together, and there is still no replacement. I go home and the bed is so lonely, and the nights so long - I turn over & Joey's gone, and then I wake up sad, and fight to go back to sleep
I wish that I had words to make you feel better, but I'm feeling pretty lousy myself. My comfort is that our dear boys are out of pain, playing happily over Rainbow Bridge, and that we have our dear TCS family to support us. Sending you prayers and thoughts for comfort and healing
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post #24 of 31
9/11/10 at 1:50am
I'm so sorry you're feeling this pain. You were wonderful to Fang and were there when he needed you the most. Sometimes they come to us and stay so briefly in our world, but the love we share is so intense.I'm sorry your other babies are grieving. I hope, in time, your healing can begin. R.I.P Fang
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post #25 of 31
9/11/10 at 4:15am
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Originally Posted by gailuvscats View Post
tomorrow will be a week, and it feels like an hour. Haven't skipped crying several times each day. I am worried about my other two. Fang was the glue. He groomed them both, they loved him. they were never that close with each other, and any head bumping between them was with Fang in the middle. Now they pass each other without even a sniff. they don't want to eat next to each other, and spike doesn't come into the bedroom to remind us to get out of bed. Fang was talker, and it is very quiet now. I try to distract myself, but alway end up bawling, no matter what I am doing, or where I am. I miss him so much, and I feel so guilty, and helpless, and angry. It is so painful. My heart hurts.
Oh Gail, I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. Gosh, I just feel so bad.

Pansy and Spike of course miss him as much as you do, and it will take them time to adjust to the loss, too. They may, with time turn to each other, but I understand your worry. It's only been a few days, you are all still in shock.

I'm so sorry.Fang
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post #26 of 31
9/13/10 at 11:31am
Gail, I'm so sorry you lost Fang so young and so unexpectedly. Don't beat yourself up - HCM is something that very often goes undiagnosed, and even when it is, its progress can only be slowed, not stopped.

, Fang. You were obviously loved very much.
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post #27 of 31
9/13/10 at 4:17pm
Gail, I'm so sorry I'm just now seeing this thread. Of course it's still really raw, especially as it happened so quickly and was so unexpected! I'm so sorry, sweetie. He was a beautiful boy. I know he's doing his best to comfort you from the Bridge - but it just doesn't replace their touch or their talk. Of course your heart hurts.






Play happily over the bridge, Fang.
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post #28 of 31
9/16/10 at 5:16am
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Saturday is two weeks. I can't stop crying and remembering. I miss Fang so much. He was the friendliest cat I ever knew. He had humble beginnings being neglected and out on the streets to fend for himself in a bitter, bitter cold winter. Finally, his drug dealer owner went to jail, and the rescue group took him in, and I adopted him a few weeks later. He was so malnourished that his hair was wirey, no soft. He had food allergies, and soft poo. he had a broken incisor, and ended up getting two other teeth removed as they were cracked. We got all that fixed and With such a horrible beginning, he always greeted strangers to the house, he followed me from room to room, sat on my lap with every opprortunity, rubbed against my legs whenever I was standing in the kitchen, would look at me and meow hello. He sat on the side of the tub while I bathed, and batted his feet in the water, and licked his paw. He was a once in a lifetime cat and I am so grateful I got to know him. He died way to early at 7. RIP my beloved baby. I wish I could have done more for you, that I would have recognized the warning signs that something was not right with you. I didn't know. I am so sorry.
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post #29 of 31
9/16/10 at 6:48am
I am so so sorry about your beloved little boy Fang. Guilt is a teribble emotional weight and I fully understand why you have it. I am sure you know you did not do anything wrong. Fang was a sweetheart for sure and he will always love you for everyhting that you did for him. It is so very very difficult to lose them. for you in these awfully difficult times! Little Fang please stop by and comfort your mommy!
Marina
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post #30 of 31
9/24/10 at 5:30am
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Tomorrow is three weeks. I am still crying everyday, a few times. It is getting easier to function between bouts of tears. I miss him so much. The other two miss him too. Every morning we all stare at the spot Fang should be sitting. Spike keeps looking back and forth for him, as if he will walk out of the bedroom any minute. they are not any closer to each other or me. I am hoping when it gets cold, we will all cuddle together. They don't sleep with me. Before, they did, but now I realize they were sleeping with Fang, not me.
We all loved him so much.
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