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I can't believe that this day has arrived already. It's been 7 weeks and it doesn't seem like that long.

I'm torn about whether I want to go back now or not!!!! Now that I'm feeling better, I'd love to just have some extended time off to do stuff.

I have to remember to pack a lunch for myself to take to work.

I'm afraid to see the state of my clinic! I didn't have much confidence in the person who was taking it over while I was away, and judging by the emails I was getting from my clerk and the doctor I work with, I have my work cut out for me to get it back in order again

I bought a gift and a lovely card for one of my co-workers. Her daughter looked after Abby for me (I paid her) but Sharon my co-worker came with her daughter when I was home in order to check on me, and then called me daily on the telephone to see how I was doing and to find out if I needed help with anything. She has a very busy life and it meant a great deal to me that she did that.

WOW i cant believe its been 7 weeks hun!

You will be glad to get back, the next few days will fly over by the sounds of it if you have to sort everything out

And it does seem like you have some caring work collegues though

and remember take it easy

I suspect I'll be in bed 5 minutes after getting home! I've gotten so used to my afternoon naps that I can't do without them. Will take some adjusting.

Wow, it seems like only yesterday that you stopped working!

Well your days at work will probably pass quickly as you will be busy!! It will be hard getting back into the old routine though!

Best of luck on your first day back, hope it's not too stressful!

Wonderful news, Linda! I hope the state of things at work is just bad enough to make you feel needed, but not so bad as to make you cry. Have a great first day back!

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I suspect I'll be in bed 5 minutes after getting home! I've gotten so used to my afternoon naps that I can't do without them. Will take some adjusting.

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Good luck on your first day back at work...I hope it's an easy one.
Be sure to take that nap, you will have deserved it.

I take a nap every afternoon. I get up early and need it to function. I don't feel guilty about it and you shouldn't either. Embrace the nap....it's a GOOD thing.

Well I'm awake!! That's a step in the right direction!

Had a nice long shower, brushed Abby, ate my Special K Redberries while reading the online paper, checked email and am about to get dressed. My ride comes at about 7:15.

I have to admit that I feel nervous and have butterflies in my stomach.....like the first day of school or a new job! Weird. Never felt like that even when I was starting my back-to-work program after being off work for 4.5 years, or when I started this job back in November last year.

I ordered "Greek" pizza last night and it didn't affect me adversely (they must have used actual feta cheese from goats milk instead of cow milk). So I'm going to take 2 slices to work with me for lunch.

Anyway, better get moving, or I'll be really embarrassed if I miss my ride and am late for work!

Well, I take it that no further post means you didn't miss your ride ...at least... I HOPE it means that!

Your day is probably over or almost over, but you're doing OK!

Oooh, hope all goes well for you hun, I am sure it will.xx

How was your first day back? I hope everything went well!

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How was your first day back? I hope everything went well!

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Hope you're feeling well!

I hope you are felling well, and that your day went well to hun

Well, I survived my first and second day back! Barely! I've gotten so used to having afternoon naps that I was so tired that I just wanted to run out of there and home to bed by 2pm! Monday I was in bed by 7:20pm. Woke up at midnight and couldn't fall back asleep. Went to work dog tired because I had already been awake for 8 hours by the time I started work. Then last night I couldn't fall asleep at all because I was so overtired that I wasn't tired anymore. I think I last looked at the clock at around 1:30am or so. Of course my alarm went off at 5:15

Anyway, the clinic wasn't as messy as I thought it would be. Yes, there was some stuff, well, quite a bit of stuff that I had to go through and redo bits and pieces to make sure that tests were ordered before the patients' appointments so that we had the results the day of, but nothing really disasterous. She did a great job!

I found out yesterday that my desk is being moved once again. This will be the 3rd desk and 3rd location since I started there at the end of November. Frankly I'm getting tired of being shuffled around. At least this time, for now, my assignment is not being changed, just my desk location.

When I took over this assignment, the desk where the girl who had this assignment before me, was going to be empty (on the 3rd floor). My communication's clerk (like ward clerk) for my clinic sat 2 desks away. I asked to sit at that desk. But the manager insisted that I needed to be on the main floor where the other hematology nurses sat.

Well, those nurses had their communication's clerk sitting right next to them. Mine was 1/2 way across the building, up an elevator and back 1/2 way across the building again. It made it difficult to exchange work and the only way we communicated was by phone or email, and she made a trip down to my desk once or twice a day about 3 times per week! So when she brought stuff to me, it was a huge stack that took me 2 days to wade through. I was so not happy. In addition to that, all of my clinics where I see patients are on the 3rd floor, so I had to lug 1/2 of my desk contents upstairs in a cart with me when I did clinics.

Well, another girl is now in a similar situation. She sits on the 3rd floor, and her clinics are on the 3rd floor, her communication's clerk is on the main floor behind me, and 2 nurses that do the same area that she does are also a couple of desks away.

There are only 8 desks in the area where I sit and 9 are needed to have all of us nurses and our communications clerks near each other.

So at some point while I was away, the manager decided that it would be better for me to sit upstairs at the empty desk near my communication's clerk, and to have the other girl move down to my desk to be near her communication's clerk and the 2 nurses in her clinical area. This change will now put me in a different part of the building away from my clinical area which the manager felt so strongly about my having to be near.

What gets me is that I had asked several times before I actually took over the assignment to let me have the desk on the 3rd floor because it was more convenient to be near by clinic rooms and my communications clerk. I asked so many times that she finally said, and I quote "Linda, stop asking. It isn't going to happen!"

So I'll move upstairs to the empty desk, the other girl will move downstairs to my desk leaving her desk empty.

Why the change? I have no idea. The other girl has been there for about 5 years and I started less than a year ago. I've been having to work around having my desk in a different part of the building from my clinics and my communication's clerk since March. The other girl's assignment was just modified within the last few weeks. So the only thing I can think of is "new kid on the block syndrome". Basically, with me being new to the company, it didn't matter if I was inconvenienced.

Anyway, I'm so tired of being shuffled around that I'm very demoralized with this company already. I'm actually tossing around in my head going back to school to learn a different trade. I just feel like this job and nursing in general is sucking the life out of me. I'll make a post on that later tonight when I get home because I have to finish snarfing down my breakfast and leave for work in 15 minutes.

Yeah, the overtired thus not being able to sleep thing is a problem. Hope you get back into the swing of a schedule soon. I'm sure the lack of sleep makes it harder to deal with everything - but that is a LOT of moves. Very unsetling and annoying for sure! I'm sorry Linda.

Linda, I'm just now catching up with this thread. I hope your third day back is less stressful. It sounds like the desk change will be a good thing for you, no matter why it's happening now. that it will be the last move.

Well, I got moved today. I know all of the girls in the room in passing but have never worked or socialized with any of them before.

It was a good day over all. I got myself settled in and actually like the new room. It's off the beaten path and there are only 6 of us in the room compared with 12 in the first room I was in, and 16 in the second room. So it's a whole lot less distracting and I managed to get quite a bit of work done and it's actually nice to not have to strain to listen on the telephone because someone next to me is talking to loud, or having people shouting back and forth to each other instead of getting up and going to talk to them.

So the move is actually a good thing.

I seriously hope that this will be the last move! I talked to the girl who had my assignment before and she told me that she's not coming back full time when her current term expires. But she hasn't told management yet.

So it looks like I'll be staying in the assignment, unless management decides otherwise, or the girl changes her mind.

The doctor I work with is very difficult to get along with. I mean he's nice, but he can be very aggressive, condescending and borderline verbally abusive (IE: he gets frustrated and he rants at you like it's your fault). I just ignore him when he's like that. And on occasion when he's on a roll, I'll casually look at him and say "ignoring you!"

He and I get along pretty good. He was absolutely beside himself when he found out I was going off on medical leave. He went to the manager and was all "what about me!" because he was feeling sorry for himself because I had just gotten the hang of things and manage to keep him organized and on track. My manager looked at him and said "what about her? She has cancer!"

The only thing that really bothers me about him is that I'm highly organized, bordering on OCD! Well, not really. But I'm dyslexic and I find that I can't work in chaos and need to be organized in order to function and not make mistakes. Him on the other hand is so grossly disorganized. But I'm working on him about that. Not going so well though. I think it's just his nature to be disorganized!

Another thing is that he is always taking time off for this and that and that means I have to constantly reschedule appointments. It's a nightmare and very time consuming. So that is really the main reason that most people don't want to work with him.

I think they're all secretly happy that I don't mind working with him and actually get along with him and know how to manage him. The trick is that I "read" him when I first met him and realized that I could get what I want changed/done, so long as I didn't tell him what to do. So I carefully word things so that in the end he thinks it was all his idea!

Anyway, I'll see how things go.

I am going to make an appointment with my family doctor for next week to talk to him about how I've been feeling. I may need to increase my Celexa for awhile until "this" restless/extreme boredom/lack luster feeling passes. I think not being in good health for any length of time since mid 2004 has finally taken it's toll! It just seems that if it's not one health crisis it's another. Just when I start to feel well, something comes along to set me back health-wise again, which is why I feel that this job is just sucking the life out of me. I use every ounce of energy that I have to go to work Monday to Friday, that in the evening and on the weekends, I have very little left to actually have a life.

I think I'm having a middle age crisis! I'm 48 so it's probably around that time it should be starting!

Glad you're happy with the move! And let's hope it's the last one. !!!

Linda, with how you work with and manage your boss, you sound so much like me and Gary!

Let's also hope this was the last health crisis.