Mods, I apologize - I don't know if this should go in the rainbow bridge forum or not.
Hi folks, I haven't been around for a long time... but find I have to come back to people who will understand exactly what I'm going through.
My cat, Captain, has colon cancer again. We first found it two years ago and did surgery to remove the tumor. He bounced back and was happy for about a year and a half. Then in May we took him back to the vet because I noticed he wasn't quite "right." Nothing was detectable at that time... of course things never got "better" and on Monday we took him in to find that he has a tumor that has nearly closed part of his colon off. Worse - one end of the tumor is edging into the pelvic area. Our vet here says he isn't comfortable operating because of that.
We could go to Spokane for the operation - the doctor there is supposed to call us once he receives the xrays to tell us if the operation is advisable.
My heart is aching. Captain has been with me for 15 years - he's an 18 or 19 year old cat - and is... he's my baby, there's no other way to say it. He's my first real pet, and the first that I've had to make a decision like this. (I suppose I'm lucky in that I got to my late 20s before having to face this.)
If we go ahead and operate I have no idea how long he'll have before it comes back again (and it will - the vet says 3 months to 2 years - this last cancer free stint was about a year and a half) and it will definitely be inoperable the next time around. This tumor went from undetectable at the end of May to an inch and a half long... in three months.
At this point, I think it is kinder to let him go... he's doing "ok" at the moment. He's uncomfortable but not in pain, and we've been letting him stay outside most of the time during the day. He doesn't go anywhere, just lies in the garden and watches the birds and soaks in the sun. Once he gets to the point where he's not doing well... we're finding a vet who is willing to come to our home.
I feel like either decision I make - letting him go or taking him for surgery - is the wrong one. I feel like a murderer if I choose to not go ahead with the surgery, and I feel like I'm probably being selfish if I do.
Any advice, solace, or words of wisdom that you can offer?
Hi folks, I haven't been around for a long time... but find I have to come back to people who will understand exactly what I'm going through.
My cat, Captain, has colon cancer again. We first found it two years ago and did surgery to remove the tumor. He bounced back and was happy for about a year and a half. Then in May we took him back to the vet because I noticed he wasn't quite "right." Nothing was detectable at that time... of course things never got "better" and on Monday we took him in to find that he has a tumor that has nearly closed part of his colon off. Worse - one end of the tumor is edging into the pelvic area. Our vet here says he isn't comfortable operating because of that.
We could go to Spokane for the operation - the doctor there is supposed to call us once he receives the xrays to tell us if the operation is advisable.
My heart is aching. Captain has been with me for 15 years - he's an 18 or 19 year old cat - and is... he's my baby, there's no other way to say it. He's my first real pet, and the first that I've had to make a decision like this. (I suppose I'm lucky in that I got to my late 20s before having to face this.)
If we go ahead and operate I have no idea how long he'll have before it comes back again (and it will - the vet says 3 months to 2 years - this last cancer free stint was about a year and a half) and it will definitely be inoperable the next time around. This tumor went from undetectable at the end of May to an inch and a half long... in three months.
At this point, I think it is kinder to let him go... he's doing "ok" at the moment. He's uncomfortable but not in pain, and we've been letting him stay outside most of the time during the day. He doesn't go anywhere, just lies in the garden and watches the birds and soaks in the sun. Once he gets to the point where he's not doing well... we're finding a vet who is willing to come to our home.
I feel like either decision I make - letting him go or taking him for surgery - is the wrong one. I feel like a murderer if I choose to not go ahead with the surgery, and I feel like I'm probably being selfish if I do.
Any advice, solace, or words of wisdom that you can offer?