Two of my special-needs cats are deteriorating rapidly. Please send prayers & vibes..

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Tommy & Cecilia could both use all of the vibes and prayers you guys can spare right now (I could use a good bit of vibes too if you guys can spare some. I'm not handling this well and I'm just now up to posting about this). As of this week, both of my special needs kitties have taken a dramatic turn for the worse.
I am heartbroken and soo upset over it. I have an appointment with a new vetrinarian today at 2:30 for both of them.

I adopted both kitties back in June when a local cat shelter was facing the possibility of closing their shop doors due to lack of funding. (they have since recieved a sponsor that has alloted them enough money to keep the shop up and running.) Since I used to work as a vet tech and I am comfortable administering meds, caring for special needs animals etc, I decided to adopt one of the oldest cats there (Cecilia) and one of the most ill (Tommy). My intent from the start has been to give them a loving, comfortable home where they can live out their golden days, reguardless of how long or short they might be. From the get-go, I made a promise to both of them that I would never let them suffer though if I saw their health begin to decline.

As of this week, despite IV drips, calcatron, renal K gel, aluminum supplements,etc Tommy's severe CRF has dramatically begun to worsen.
He's only 9 years old. This week he has gone from being bright-eyed and bushy tailed to being lethargic, depressed, and not grooming himself...I increased his IV fluids to see if that may improve things, but non improvement has been made. He has gone from perfect litterbox ettiquite to having accidents (and they're increasing more each day). He has also began vomiting multiple times a day...even to the point that it's clear & foamy when there's no food involved. He has also stopped opening up all of the cabinents in my apartment and stopped trying to play with the puppy and go "fishing" in my fish tanks...goofy little things he's always done from day one that showed me he had spunk and energy. He has also begun hiding in very odd spots in my apartment, instead of playing on on the cat tree he loves or laying in one of his many cat beds.. almost like he's looking for a place to pass
. To top all of that off...he has begun having seizures this week as well. It started out with a few small ones and now they have become more frequent and more common. Yesterday I came home from running some errands to find Tommy laying in the floor seizing. I have no idea how long his sezure was going on before I came home. It absolutely broke my heart to see little Tommy like that.


Cecilia..well she's gone downhill this week as well. It's just too much having to deal with two of my babies going downhill in the same week.
I've always been able to handle/deal with my special needs animals and know when it's time to say goodbye, but until now, I've never had two decline soo rapidly in the same week.
Cecilia is well over 20 years old (I would easily put her in her mid-twenties). As of the last few weeks she has steadily declined in health as well. I had her groomed/bathed back in July as she can no longer groom herself. She weighed around 5lbs then. Now she optimistically weighs around 3lbs tops. She also has severe gingivostomatitis ....that can be treated only one way- a full dental extration. Several vets have already told me that based on her lab work, she would not fair well with anestesia and that kind of surgery at that age, so she has been recieving monthly steroid/antibiotic injections to help with the inflammation/pain a bit...but they don't seem to do much as she whines anytime you try to clean her up or get near her mouth. Her vision has also become much worse as well...she has cataracts on both eyes and this week has begun running into things (I have not moved any furniture/etc around to make it easier on her). To sum it up, my poor little girl looks like a walking skeleton...you can see and feel every bone in her little body, despite her eating like a pig and recieving nutritional supplements. Cecilia has begun to turn into a recluse the last two weeks...now she hides in her cat bed and rarely comes out to greet me like she used to. (Normally she would greet me and slap me with her little paw while she begged for food...despite her age, she has always been spunky and a little pig about food...but the last two weeks that's changed and she's steadily been loosing weight and declining.)

I think it's safe to say that I'm at my wits end right now
To top ALL of that off, I'm having heart surgery on Monday.(I had already made arrangements for my mom to care for my cats and administer medicine while I'm in the hospital and for my sister to keep my puppy in her home). I would be devistated if something happened to Tommy or Cecilia if they made it to next week and I was away. I also wouldn't want my mom to have to make the decision to take them to the vet and have to deal with that while I'm away. I honestly don't know what to do at this point, so I'm going to get another opinion from the vet today...maybe he has a new treatment option or maybe he'll tell me what the other vets have said as well. Eithor way, I'll feel more comfortable making a decision after today's vet visit and consultation. (It'll be the 3rd one, so if they're all in agreement, then I will do what's best for my kitties.) I am too upset and attached to make a clear decision on my own right now. I have already recieved two other opinions from different vets, all of them telling me that both cats need to be put down so they don't suffer anymore. Even some of my friends and family members that visit me often have noticed the decline in the health of both cats and have mentioned that if they were there pets, they would not let them continue to suffer and deteriorate. I know they're right, but I'm still having a hard time thinking about letting go of two at once if that's what today's visit to the vet determines is best.
Please send some vibes and prayers if you guys can spare them...this has been a very difficult week.
 

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to you and loads of good for Tommy & Cecilia

I'm afraid I don't have any words of wisdom for you, but you're all in my thoughts right now. I know how solidly the special needs kitties can latch onto your heart, and I'm sure you'll do what's best for all of you.
 

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God bless you for adopting these babies.
You have done so much to improve the quality of their lives and I commend you so much for that. Please do not think of it in terms of time because they know nothing of time. They just know that they are cherished and loved and that means everything to them.

Please know that I will keep you and your babies in my prayers. I have had to say goodbye to several beloved pets over the years, but never two at once. I cannot even begin to imagine your heartbreak.

If they are in pain and/or the quality of their lives begins to suffer, logically we know the decision we must make. But the pain is heartbreaking and so difficult to get through.

Please know that we are here for you. And please make every effort to take care of yourself.
 

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Prayers for you and the cats.
I can relate to the CRF Coco was so bad a few weeks ago and nothing was helping her.
The vet said she is in End Stage CRF.
Stripe had a seizure and she had to be pts from her CRF so I know how you are feeling.
We talked about that with Coco also.
Sorry about your older cat also.

 

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Nikki, I think you've done an amazing thing for these two special babies. Odd how your heart is breaking just as heart surgery is coming up.


I have no words of advice, just know you and the kitties are in my thoughts and prayers.


 
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Thankyou everyone for your kind words and support.
It's been a really long day and I just want to crawl into bed, so I'll keep it short. I am emotionally drained and all cried-out at this point.

Today went like this: While I was putting Cecilia in her carrier to take to the vet earlier today, Tommy started to have a horrible seizure in the floor. I was getting them both ready to go see the vet and all of a sudden my little man just started convulsing and drooling everywhere.
I got both of them to the vets office as fast as I could (thankfully the new vets office is down the street from where I moved). When the vet put Tommy on the table, he started having another nasty seizure. The vet said that he wouldn't make it, so I decided to have him put to rest and end the seizures and his suffering. The vet that I took them to was in complete agreement with the other vets I had consulted with and was very kind about everything. He talked to me for quite a while about what was in the best interest of the cats and how prolonging things for eithor of them would only make them suffer since both of their little bodies had shut down. He also added that even though Tommy was 9 and Cecilia was well over 20+ years old, Tommy's little body was even far worse than Cecilia's because of the severe CRF that had wracked the little guys system.


After the vet examined Cecilia, he recommended she be put down as well due to the emaciated condition she was in and her quickly deteriorating condition. She weighed 3lbs. 7 oz on the scale and you could see and feel every bone in her poor little body.
She had lost more weight since her last grooming when she was at 5lbs even. The vet said that since their was no fat left on her little body, her system was eating up her muscle tissue now and that her organs were in the process of shutting down. He said that she was age 20-24 at best guess and that she would be unable to tolerate the anestesia and recovery involved in a full dental treatment to treat the gingo. issues with her gums. (He also said that even if he removed her teeth, she would still have the ulcers/etc that would make it painful for her. Since I had previously tried two different steriod/antibiotic injections and those didn't improve the condition of her gums or make it easier for her to eat, he said that there wasn't anything else he could do for the little girl. So, considering her condition (cataracts, gingio. issues, severe weight loss, early stage CRF, and the fact that her organs are shutting down and her muscle tissue is now being used in place of her being able to store fat,) we decided to put her down as well since she had begun to deteriorate soo badly. The vet said that he would have given her a month tops before she passed on her own accord after a lot of pain and suffering. I couldn't in good conscious put her through suffering like that. Even though she was eating, her body was starving her because her organ system/etc was shutting down; little Cecilia had turned into a lethargic, walking skeleton.

When I adopted them both, I knew they were special needs and would likely only live for a short time. I just never thought in a million years that they would both go downhill in the same week. It's been very miserable, heartbreaking day. I know without a shadow of a doubt that I made the right decision for my furbabies, especially seeing little Tommy seize non-stop on the exam table at the vets office and seeing little Cecilia's weight on the scale there and talking to the vet. Nonetheless, I was still very attached to them and loved them very, very dearly. I will miss both of my sweet furbabies
I feel blessed that I was able to take Tommy and Cecilia into my home and give them a few good months with all of the love and attention they needed. I only wish that the time I had with those sweet angels was much longer.
 

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Despite what you say, you are a very strong person. You did what was best for them, not for you.

I lost 2 special needs cats within 48 hours of eachother. I know of what you speak.

God bless you and your babies. The angels have them now and they love kitties.

Take care of yourself. You fought the good fight. You have a good heart.
 

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Oh hun, how heartbreaking!
I am so, so sorry for the loss of your precious babies. You ARE truly an angel. Rest in peace little ones...
 

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I'm so very sorry...

It takes an incredibly special person to take in and love these kitties, especially knowing you may have limited time with them. I'm sure they both knew how much you cared.
R.I.P
Tommy & Cecilia
 

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I am so sorry for the loss of your fur babies. I know it is a devastating loss for you.

I also know that you made their lives incredibly better despite their physical ailments because they knew they were loved and cherished. You gave them the wonderful gift of a loving home!


Please take care of yourself. You are one in a million!
 

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I'm so sorry for your loss of Tommy and Cecelia. How wonderful though that they knew so much love and care, because of you. I can't type more for the tears running down my face.
 

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I can only think that fate or God placed these two babies in your hands, to make sure they knew love during their days here. I am so sorry for your loss.
 

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Oh my goodness, my heart goes out to you. What a terrific mommy you were to them. My sincerest condolences
 
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I just wanted to say thankyou to everyone for the kind words and support. It really means a lot to me right now.


I'm hanging in there. When I woke up this morning it took a few minutes for it to dawn on me that Tommy & Cecilia aren't here anymore. I'm used to waking up everyday and spending about an hour between the two of them (IV drips, medication, grooming,etc). So that's going to take a little while to adjust to. I am happy that they are no longer suffering or having their little bodies shut down on them. I only wish that I would have had more time with those sweet furbabies. Tommy & Cecilia were such a blessing in my life.


Two of my animals seem to be handling things ok (Velvet & Isabella-two of my girl kitties- honestly as long as they have food in their bowl, they could care less about anything else). Ranger and Kojak are another story though, they're not doing so great at the moment. They both adored Tommy and played with him all of the time. Ranger is my Australian Shepherd puppy; he's been wondering all over my apartment whining and looking for Tommy (Tommy would share the water dish with Ranger, groom the puppy, take naps with the puppy, and even play with him). Ranger has been carrying around one of Tommy's toys in his mouth all over the apartment. Kojak (my boy kitty) has been wondering around the place as well, meowing and chirping....looking for Tommy. Kojak is much younger than my other two kitties, so I know he misses the companionship Tommy provided him with. (Even though tommy was 9, until the very end stages of his CRF set in, he would play with Kojak all of the time) They used to sleep together and play together, so it's soo sad to see both Ranger & Kojak look for Tommy like that. (Cecilia was much older than my other animals, so she pretty much kept to herself).

When I came home yesterday from the vets office, I laid down the little blanket that I had taken with me there for my other pets to smell of. (The vet said that it would help my other animals if they were able to sniff at the blanket Tommy & Cecilia passed away on so that they would know they were gone.) I'm not sure how much it helped though, Ranger and litlte Kojak are still wondering around looking for Tommy.
 

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Nikki,

I am so sorry for your loss. Be well and happy on the other side of the
bridge sweet ones.
 

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I'm so sorry.


They have found a wonderful person in you and knew love and kindness for the time they were with you. They will be watching over you.

Rest in Peace Tommy and Cecilia.


Take care of yourself.
 
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