I guess I just need to talk to somebody about this other than my mother, who is really not helping me cope with this. I'm going off to college in the fall (yay!), but in just a couple of days I'm going into the hospital for minor surgery (sorry if I misspelled that). I was born with a cleft lip, and now I'm getting the last repair made that should proabably should have been done years ago. There's no better way to say, other than I'm getting some fat sucked out of my butt and injected into my lip to puff out the rest of the cleft. However, I have to go into the hospital to get this done and go under anesthesia. Now, I get panic attacks just by having blood drawn-I am NOT good with needles. I've gotten better the last couple of years, but I'm still deathly afraid of the OR. My mom isn't exactly helping either, though she's trying. She keeps saying I need it, becuase she notices it when I laugh. But I never wanted to have this done, it was her idea in the first place. She scheduled the operation without heeding my opinion, and I just feel like it's my own body, but I can't find a way to tell her, and I think it's way too late now. I had 2 boyfriends who loved me for who I am, not what my lip looked like while I laugh.