This year needs to end NOW!

I'm sorry for venting here but I'm so full of steam right now I just need to get it out. I thought last year was bad... a lot of issues occurred, including my father having a heart attack, then bypass surgery and being on the verge of a separation from my husband, little did I know that last year was a cake walk compared to this. This has been my year thus far

March 15-horrible car accident
31-find out I need surgery, the next day

April 1-surgery

May
-my brother in the process of leaving his wife (which has been going on for nearly a year) and she somehow managed to throw ME in the middle which caused massive issues between myself and her sister

June
-find out my dad's not doing well health wise and instead of HELPING his wife (my step mother) is making things worse for him
-my mother's having some health issues.. her anemia's getting WAY worse (even with meds) she's getting cysts on her ovaries and now they found something on her liver
-Rosie gave birth and 2 of the 6 kittens passed, plus those 2-3 days of her not caring for them stressed me out as well
-an issue with my daughter (rather not go into it) that ended up with her being admitted on Thur for a stay at a mental behavior clinic for 5 days

and today, the topping on the cake...

my aunt called me (as I was leaving from my visit with my daughter) and my other aunt went into cardiac arrest today. She had surgery for a leg issue 2 weeks ago and was on blood thinners, well no one knows exactly what happened but her husband came home and found her collapsed on the floor and called 911. They have her "stable" enough for a transfer to another (better) hospital and are going to attempt to give her medication to try and break up the clot(s). She's currently sedated, on all sorts of tubes, and I have no clue what else because no one wants to give me the whole story and stress me out even more. They said her heart is looking strong and she's getting oxygen, they're just not sure if it's enough and need to do some more testing/waiting/watching. All of this and I can't even be there for her (they're in CT).

I'm so done and fed up, I feel like I'm going to lose my mind. Keep in mind that my husband is currently deployed (although, THANKFULLY, he'll be home MUCH sooner than he should've initially been (less than 9 weeks). When does it end? I know life isn't supposed to be more than you can handle and I know that everything will be "ok" but at this point in time I'm really struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I feel like such a crappy daughter/niece because I couldn't be there when my dad had his heart attack and surgery, I couldn't be there with my mother when she found out this news about her health and now my aunt, the one who practically raised me and did SO much for me in life, the one who I've always thought of as more of a mother than my own, is going through this and I can't even be there. I just want this year to end already but if this is how it's been, and we're not even half way through (and I'm sure I've left out a few things) I'm afraid to see how the rest is going to go

Awww hun, I'm so sorry that you have been going through all of this. I don't and never will understand why some people just have such a cakewalk through life and others have to struggle daily. They way I try to look at it is when life gets me down, I know that I could ALWAYS have it a hell of a lot worse. Keep your chin up, and I'm sending vibes your way.

I'm hoping the rest of this year will turn out a lot better than when it started. I'm sending good vibes to you...

sending lots of and that your year gets better and you get through this tough time.

You are most certainly dealing with a lot of things right now. Try to remember that it all will pass at some point and things will turn around for you. In the meantime, I hope you have someone you can talk to when you feel too stressed, maybe a close friend, teacher, preacher, someone you can trust and have respect for. lt always helps to have a bouncing board, someone who will listen. My prayers include you and those around you. Hope it all gets better soon.

Oh sweetie

Sorry you are going through such a rough patch.

I'm so sorry this year is so bad for you.....hopefully you're at the end of your streak of crappy luck and things will turn around for you soon.

And I'm truly glad that your DH will be home soon!

Thanks everyone! I talked to my uncle today and apparently yesterday when they did CT to find out where the clot was so they could try to surgically remove it since the meds weren't really working, well they ended up finding more than 1 clot in her lung and internal bleeding coming from her liver. Well they stopped the blood thinners and they got the bleed stopped/fixed but now they're keeping an eye on her kidneys. My uncle said they're working better than they were earlier today, which is good to know. They said if things continue to get better than they should be able to take her off the ventilator in 2-3 days, so here's hoping.

Well, think in terms of accounting. You are now, according to the books, on a fiscal year that ends June 30th. Quite common. So now, next year, starting July 1, can be better.

im so sorry your going through a bad patch

Thanks everyone. I'm really hoping that things do start to get better ASAP. I talked to my other aunt today and she said there's not much change but she seems to be doing better. I've been trying to rationalize a way to get up there but the cheapest (bus) way is also the way that'd take the longest (2 day trip each way) and with 3 kids it'll be difficult enough, but then I'd also have to figure out what to do with my dogs (kenneling them will cost at least 13$ per day for each of them-2, there's no one here that'd be available to watch them) and the cats. I just really don't know what to think because I have a feeling that my family isn't telling me everything. Every time I call they're on the verge of tears but try to hide it and always go off subject of my aunt and it's driving me nuts

to you and healing vibes coming your way for you and your family

I have had periods in my life like this, being hit by serious, life-threatening illness, first my son, then my husband then the whole lot compounded by financial problems (caused by husband's illness) and you get to the point where you think you can't cope any more

But you get strength from somewhere and when things settle down, you realise you did cope.

My late mother, used to say in times of crisis "God won't give you a bigger burden than you can carry".

I'm sorry that you are having such a hard time. I am really praying that things will get better soon. I'm sending lots of and