Just don't feel like I am here

ack sorry hissy, in my head I said Bartee but somehow I typed Bastee..

Hissy I am so sorry! We are all here for you.

Oh Hissy, I understand your pain and you know that this is the last place that will say "oh he was just a cat" - this is the perfect place to share your feelings, especially when it comes to something like this. I have tears in my eyes because I can feel your pain over losing your sweetheart.
Bless you for taking care of these magnificent creatures and they know love because of you.

XOXOXOXO

Oh Hissy, You poor thing. I know how much you love your babies and I can just see the rainbow bridge with all the kitties and puppies sharing stories of their lives and the people who care for them. I know your babies have the best "people" stories to share and are envied by all the other cats and dogs there. Close your eyes and "see" them playing and free from pain, sneaking up on each other and basking in the dapple sunlight. Every tree is draped in content kitties sleeping over those poor dogs that don't have the wonderful vantage point in the trees.
Lots of hugs from me and mine.

Over the years, I have lost many cats and as much as people say it NEVER gets harder , I'm so sorry about Bartee my friend , I know how you are feeling and I know you didn't post here to get sympathy but everyone loves you here .......

Give Bartee a nice burial with maybe your fave flower on his grave, it might make you feel better when he is R.I.P.

We are always here to talk Mary Anne, especially me I'm always here ( ), Pm, E-mail, who knows we might even get the chance to talk on the phone one day.

Don't stay here because you feel obliged to post, take some time out for you and Mike, have a bath, take a walk , drink your fave drink.

You are definitly in my thoughts.
You have my blessings
With Love.

Samantha.

*edited done smiley wrong*

Thanks you guys. I know you all understand, and some more than others. I talked to the vet and this is her educated guess. Bartee was in the early stages of CRF and the anesthesia they gave him to do the procedure somehow interfered with his system and shut him down. They were only going to do a local at first but he was in such a state (being feral and stressed) that they opted to put him completely under so that after they scoped him they could also x-ray him and look for problems.

I don't know if I buy the explanation, but we went and got him earlier and he is buried now near the creek. There is little anyone can do at this point since he is gone. I just know I miss him so much and I ache inside. He was very special to us.

It's the saddest part - The Burial, but it's also a 'good' part because it means you are giving the cat a 2nd life in heavon and giving him a easier way on to the bridge.

Again, I'm Sorry!

Hissy,
If it isn't too painful can you share some pictures and stories about your baby. Sometimes it helps to talk about how special your kitty was to you.

MA:

You may not feel like you are here, but be assured that WE are here for you!

MA, I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your boy. Losing a pet is losing a family member as far as I'm concerned. When I had to have my cat Tara put down, I felt like my heart was ripped out. You, Mike, and Bailey are in my thoughts.

My heart goes out to you. You've been so kind to us all that I wish there was something I could say to lighten your heart. Hope hearing from us will put a dent in it. My prayers go out to you and Taz.

Nicole

Mary Anne

As I said before, I am just heartbroken about you losing Bartee. I know how tough it is when it happens so unexpectedly -- not that you can ever prepare -- but it comes as such a shock when it happens this way. When I lost my Dudley 10 years ago, a short while afterwards, I wrote a long, long list of everything about him that I didn't want to forget. It helped.

Take care

Amy

Hissy,

I am so sorry to hear of your loss, my heart goes out to you. We lost our boy Spike last year and I didn't stop crying for what felt like weeks....
I can tell how well thought of you are by everyone on the site and as a new member just wanted to say how sorry I am about your lovely Bart..
He'll always be with you...
Sam xx

(((((Hissy)))))

MA, if I lost one of my cats, I wouldn't be able to type because I'd be too shaken, so NEVER feel sorry that you're grieving. I know you spent enough time with all the cats to get a feel for each of their unique personalities, so why wouldn't you grieve a friend? It's only natural that you would miss him. You know that we're here for you, and sending comforting vibes your way. Take care of yourself.

Mary Anne.... im very sorry to learn of the loss of Bartee. You are a very caring cat/kitty mommy so I understand your grief.... Your bartee is at Rainbow Bridge jumping around and playing with the other kitties there. I believe when a pet dies they could look down on their owners from their place on the bridge and watch over them and protect them from harm. he will always be with you. May little Bartee RIP.

Mary Ann,

Having been through the loss of dear ones, I know, as we all do, how you must feel. Although I am at a loss for what to say at times like these, I do know that because of you, his life was much much richer than he otherwise would have had. Take heart in that, and remember, that as he looks down at you from over the bridge, he is in no pain, and will live on forever in your heart.

MaryAnne,
Please know that you, Mike and Bartee are in my thoughts and my prayers. I'm so very sorry to hear that you've lost your little boy. It's so hard...much harder than people can imagine if they haven't experienced this before. This kind of grief isn't even describable, but yet most of us know exactly what it's like. Hang in there Girl and if you need to talk or just vent, we all have open ears & soft shoulders to cry on.
(((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))))

Hissy,
I know that words can't fill the empty space in your heart for your dearly departed friend. Cat's are not "just a cat" they are our children and friends. So you take the time to grieve we all understand.

{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}

believe me i know exactly how you feel and i feel bad for you, so so sorry, i have went throught this 3 times in my life and it wasnt any easier the 3rd time, matter fact it was worse, i felt like i was in outer space for a while, couldnt hardly sleep or consintrate on any thing, once again im so sorry. i dont know what elese to say, i think each person just has to deal with this in their own way, but no one should laugh at any one going through something like this and if some one did, i wouldnt want to be associated with them, because they are sick...