I need to cry

On October 4th, 2009 (my 21st birthday)
a family member got mad at my 2 cats and threw them outside.

these were 100000000% strictly indoor cats. outside only in a closed in porch and outside the porch with only supervision.

the next morning I looked for them.. the next day I looked for them..

come November... I looked for them....

come December, I still looked for them.

January.. February.. March

and I still sit here and cry, and cry, and cry and wonder where they went. are they still alive, did someone steal them, did someone take them thinking they were lost. did they get taken to a shelyer and get euthanized.

did they get eaten by a dog or a hawk, did they crawl into someone's vehicle and get driven miles away

did they become feral?

do they remember me? do they remember their names? did they try to find me and just go in the wrong direction?

if I could have anything else..I want my babies to come home. will I ever see them again? how many missing posters will I hand out the rest of my life, wondering if anyone has seen them?
what if someone is feeding them somewhere? they were taken in.

I still can't look at pictures or videos of them. I just cry and cry. and cry. and cry....I thought having new kittens would fill a void, but it has not filled the void. no amount of kittens or new pets will fill this gaping hole.

*sob*

Oh sweetie, that is so sad.

Please try to believe that they have found other homes, that someone has taken them in. It is totally possible.

I hope you can love your new kitties. They need you, and you need them.

God bless you and I hope you can find some peace.

I am SO sorry. All my prayers go out to you and for the safe return of your babies. Please remember we are here for you.

I am so sorry you are heartbroken. I know that made a miserable birthday memory for you. Please try to forgive whoever in your family did such a thing.
I am sure that in this amount of time you have done all you know to find them. Please try to believe that someone else found them and took them in.
The new kitties can never replace the ones who went missing. But they are precious little creatures of God and they need you to take care of them and love them. I pray that you can find peace. It will be hard but the day will come when it doesn't hurt quite so much. Hugs to you. And, I still believe in miracles. Who knows????:

I am so sorry you and your kitties had to go through this.

The connection people develop with animals is a strong bond, as you must know... there is no way they could ever forget you, or that bond you shared.

So no matter where they are, or how they are doing.. they still love you, and remember you.

I'm sure someone probably took them in thinking they were stray Especially if you live in a more urban environment.

Take care, and good luck

I had a similar thing happen to me. I found him six weeks later; he was in the neighborhood. Keep praying. Keep the word out. Renew the posters, if necessary. Keep talking about it. Kat lady

So so sorry.

today is Houdini and Spanelli's 2nd birthday.
they have now been missing since my birthday, Oct 4th 2009. I don't know what happened to them. they vanished from my yard and were never seen again. I miss them so much and I was trying not to remember their birthdays, but catster emailed me. I immediately just burst into tears.

I love them and miss them so much. I still hand out lost posters and I still call their names in the middle of the night hoping they will come to me. but they never do.

I hope they are somewhere safe and happy.

I´m so sorry...

I am so sorry. Someone may have taken them in and gave them a wonderful home.