Please help!! (Vibes)

I know I haven't really been around for a few weeks but things have been lively around here on top of my primary hard-drive failing.

My dad isn't the most healthy person in the world, even after his heart attack a few months ago he has continued to smoke and eat bad food.

He was living in this house for a few days to cool off after fighting with his wife and the day before yesterday he decided to go back so they could try some counseling. Of course I have nothing but mean thoughts in my head because I absolutely hate this woman. The last time I talked to my father I said some pretty mean things because I was mad at him... Now I feel like the worst person in the whole world.

My grandmother just told me moments ago that he called at 5AM to tell her that he was driving himself to the hospital because he was spitting up blood. He said that he felt like he was breathing through liquid but not having any shortness of breath.

I am BEYOND worried.

Even though he is not a good Father, I can't for the life of me just STOP caring. As much as i want to not care, I am beside myself right now just wanting to take the hour drive out to the hospital to see if he is okay. But I haven't been to sleep yet and it's going on 7am. I'm afraid that getting behind the wheel of the car could be a bad idea right now.

What if I wake up and somebody tells me that he died?

;_; Please be okay Daddy...

If you aren't home when I wake up I promise to come see you immediately!!

*sniffles*


Edit - I just need to add that please try to not speculate about what could be wrong. I am worrying enough right now without self-diagnosing him.

I'm so sorry about your father. I'm glad he is seeking medical attention...the hospital is the best place he can be right now. I hope they have a diagnosis and treatment plan soon. for him, and for you and the rest of your family.

They sent him home early this morning saying that it was because of all the blood thinners he is currently taking.

But he started up bleeding again and this time he is just going to see his regular doctor.

This is why i hate medicine!

Well that sounds nuts! I'm so sorry this is happening!

this is resolved and he's OK!

You are a caring person, and shouldn't force yourself to NOT care. Even if he isn't the best father in the world. (My biological father never calls me even though he is always happy when I call him and he says he will call me the next time and never does.) I love him anyway. He helped to make me, and I am excited any time I see him because I learn more about myself when ever I am with him. Of course my dad is just distant, I never knew him... Not a lot of people like him, as he is not the best person. But... he's my biological father.

I hope they get it all figured out and get him the help he needs. Loosing someone we care about, weather they are what we want or need in a family member is hard.

Be safe Stay the caring person you are.