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You can read about Whisky's passing here

http://www.thecatsite.com/forums/sho...d.php?t=210342

I'm feeling kinda out of sorts. Mainly, on the way I thought I'd be grieving for Whisky. I thought I'd be crying every day and feeling achy and such. But, I'm not. I miss him so much but feel like I haven't grieved hard enough. I just feel like I'm betraying his soul by not going through the stages of grief. I mean, I've had him for 15 years! Shouldn't I be missing him more?

Maybe it is because I made peace with myself and my decision?

Has anybody else felt like this?

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Yes, I have felt what you are going through. It was when my cat Mort died. She was almost 18 years old and we had been doing Sub Q's for a year to treat her for CRF. She loved us so much and fought like a trooper to stay with us. The day she passed away it was time for her to go. I miss her so much. She was the only one that made me feel peace in knowing it was time for her to go. Maybe somehow she communicated that to me. She was a very blessed cat.

I have other very special cats that have passed on that I have grieved for and second guessed my decisions. Mort was different.
 
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Whiskeys Dad, i think that is exactly why you are not "grieving" as much as you think you should. and when i say that, i mean grieving as in crying and beside yourself, it is because you prepared yourself for the end and you more than likely did that "stage" when you were "preparing " yourself for his end.when my Jesse eventually passed away from FIP , i had honestly cried myself out the first 3 weeks when i found out that she had FIP, and by the time she passed , it was SO SO SO sad but i was so broken and sore that i felt very very numb and a part of me was happy that she was finally in peace and pain free.my son even said to me ma, i am so surprised at the way you have handled jesses passing. but they dont realise how much i cry thinking of her, reading the crossing the bridge stories, and every morning,and i might not shed the tears , but i miss her little face snuggling up to my neck when i have my tea. i might not cry in public but i honestly ache inside everytime i think of her.
my point is, you dont have to cry and rant but you know that you miss her and that she was so loved and its okay to feel"okay" too.xx
 
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I have felt that way, and had things hit me like a ton of bricks a few weeks or even months later.
I hope this does not happen to you.
I hope you were prepared, and are holding up better than you thought you would. There is no doubt that you miss him, and that he was well loved, so just because you are not falling apart does not make that any less. I am sure Whiskey would not want his beloved person to be sad and miserable.
 
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When Smokey passed I felt some relief. She had CRF for the last 2 years of her life and the last two weeks were bad. I thought it was strange at the time but know I know It was a relief to know she was out of pain.
 
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Let me take this to the next level.

My mom died of Alzheimers a little over 2 years ago. Now, there was no one in the world I was closer to. We did everything together, sang in the choir, rode bicycles down to the little store in town for ice cream on hot summer evenings. I was her only child.

When she died, I was ok. She had taught me about faith and just knowing she was ok in a better place gave me great strength. Maybe that is what you are feeling. It was a huge relief when mom finally passed. I layed in bed next to her when she took her last breath and I felt a great relief.

I have felt this with my kitties too. I know I have done all I can when I have to make that final decision. I ask myself if I would wish them back with all the sickness they would go through. The answer is always no. I grieve and at times I still cry for cats I have lost years ago. But I have the faith that I will see my parents and my animals again. It is only location that has changed.

I have no idea if you are of the same belief, but that is what I lean on and it makes things a little easier.

Whisky was sure a handsome guy.
 
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Originally Posted by farleyv

Let me take this to the next level.

My mom died of Alzheimers a little over 2 years ago. Now, there was no one in the world I was closer to. We did everything together, sang in the choir, rode bicycles down to the little store in town for ice cream on hot summer evenings. I was her only child.

When she died, I was ok. She had taught me about faith and just knowing she was ok in a better place gave me great strength. Maybe that is what you are feeling. It was a huge relief when mom finally passed. I layed in bed next to her when she took her last breath and I felt a great relief.

I have felt this with my kitties too. I know I have done all I can when I have to make that final decision. I ask myself if I would wish them back with all the sickness they would go through. The answer is always no. I grieve and at times I still cry for cats I have lost years ago. But I have the faith that I will see my parents and my animals again. It is only location that has changed.

I have no idea if you are of the same belief, but that is what I lean on and it makes things a little easier.

Whisky was sure a handsome guy.
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i could not agree more.xx
 
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For me, the worst grief usually occurs before I have them put to sleep. Once that decision is made I've accepted that it's time to let go, that keeping them alive is painful for both of us. While I miss them always, it's like a weight lifted off my shoulders. The pain of making that decision is torture. The hole left behind is more of a dull ache, although some days it will revisit you with a vengence. Anyway, that's how it affects me.

RIP Whiskey.
 
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