My Sweet Maverick: the Love of My Life

Tiff!!!

I've not been on for the last 2 days and just saw this. I am so very sorry to hear this. Maverick is free from pain now, and as much as it hurts you, you did right by him. Give Gabriel extra hugs right now - it will help both of you.



Maverick

Sending lots of love and vibes for you Tiff.
Your baby boy will always be with you.
We are here for you.

Rest In Peace Maverick

Originally Posted by catsknowme

You did the right thing, as did I for Joey. I could have prolonged Joey's life, and it tears me up how confident and trusting he was when the vet was injecting him - whatever I decided for Joey, he was content with. Such utter trust and devotion-

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Oh my God I so know what you mean!! I was thinking this afternoon about how Maverick was looking at me with those eyes of his when the vet was doing his final exam on him and he looked as if he was thinking "When can we go home, Mom??" He thought he was just there for another treatment, and here I was "betraying" him - that's how I felt. He trusted me, and I feel like I betrayed his trust. How can he ever forgive me??

I'm so sorry you lost your "soulmate" too. 18 days isn't that long at all, and I can understand why you're still grieving. I don't think I'll be over this anytime soon myself. I have 10 other furkids in the house myself, but it still seems so empty without my beloved soulmate Maverick. There never was and never will be another special kitty like him.

I forgot to post Maverick's pic in the original post and I couldn't edit it so I'm posting it here:



You're so beautiful, my precious baby boy, and you'll always be in my heart. I love you so much.

I hope as the days go by, your grief will be tempered with the knowledge that you did the right thing.

When all my furkids went to the bridge, my grief was like yours, I was inconsolable. But as time went on, it was clear that the decisions I made were the right ones. I took comfort that my furkids never suffered needlessly and they went "home" before they became terribly ill.

God Bless you and sweet Maverick, the cat still watching over you.

Oh God - this just sucks!

I keep thinking about the vet saying that Maverick still had a strong heart, and maybe if I would have let him run some more tests that just maybe Maverick still could have had another chance. What if I let him go too soon?? What if more could have been done for him?? I keep seeing his beautifyl eyes looking up at me when they were preparing him to put him to sleep, and wanting me to take him home. What if it really wasn't his time to go yet?? I felt at peace and like I did do the right thing when I had to have other babies put to sleep, but not with Maverick. Soemthing keeps nagging at me that it wasn't his time just yet.

I'm so, so sorry my sweet Maverick if I let you go too soon. Please forgive me. I only did it becuase I loved you so much and didn't want you to suffer needlesssly.

Originally Posted by KittKatt

Oh my God I so know what you mean!! I was thinking this afternoon about how Maverick was looking at me with those eyes of his when the vet was doing his final exam on him and he looked as if he was thinking "When can we go home, Mom??" He thought he was just there for another treatment, and here I was "betraying" him - that's how I felt. He trusted me, and I feel like I betrayed his trust. How can he ever forgive me??

I'm so sorry you lost your "soulmate" too.

18 days isn't that long at all, and I can understand why you're still grieving. I don't think I'll be over this anytime soon myself.

I have 10 other furkids in the house myself, but it still seems so empty without my beloved soulmate Maverick. There never was and never will be another special kitty like him.

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Amazing how in your post, I could very easily substitute "Joey" for "Maverick" and not change a thing...please know that I thank you for having the courage to write all that you have, because I do not feel so alone now. Bless you

You said the doctor said that his kidneys and liver were shutting down. To me, that is dying. You should not have any guilt. You did the right thing and he is healthy again.

Thank you for your post. Whisky went to RB the next day. Yeah, there are things that could have been done to prolong his life. He lived a good long life and I just didn't want to see him suffer anymore. He had an open tumor on his stomach and his ear was all infected, even though I cleaned it every day. I asked God for a sign that it was his time and he gave me one, so I was content with my decision. Yeah, it hurts, but knowing he is young and healthy again makes me happy.

I´m so sorry for your loss my friend...
RIP to Maverick...

RIP Maverick

I understand what you are going through. I had to make the decision for the love of my life cat to be put to sleep 5 years ago at christmas time. I still miss him so much. I felt so guilty at the time. He was so sick and it killed me to watch him suffer anymore. I second guessed myself for a long time and had a huge chunk of my heart taken from me that day. I still long to hold him and feel his warmth. Maverick will always be a part of your soul and you will never forget him. The guilt feelings will start to fade with time, and you will realize that you saved him from suffering.

My thoughts and prayers are with you

I know it hurts, but if he's not in pain anymore, you did the right thing. My thoughts are with you. RIP Maverick.

I am so sorry. I know how painful losing a furry family member can be. They make some lovely cremation lockets. I have one for my heart dog so I can "take him with" where ever I go.
The last gift you can give is a peaceful passing. Euthanasia when when you take their pain and make it your own.

I've lost a lot of pets over the years, and there were only a few times where I didn't second guess myself afterwards. If it brings you any comfort at all, you almost always second guess yourself, particularly when it comes with a soul-mate cat.

I watched my mother die from liver cancer and if I could have given her one thing, that would have been for her to go before they shut down completely. Maverick was blessed to have this final gift from you. You saved him from an agony he would not have been able to comprehend.

I'm so sorry! You did do the right thing. It's taken me a bit to settle down after having to make that decision for Bird, but I've accepted that yes, I did the best thing for her, as much as I hate it. I pray that you get the same peace about Maverick very soon .

Originally Posted by Whisky'sDad

You said the doctor said that his kidneys and liver were shutting down. To me, that is dying. You should not have any guilt. You did the right thing and he is healthy again.

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Logically, I know you're right. Unfortunately, my heart feels something else. There's a big hole in it right now that will take a looooong time (if ever) to heal.

Thank you for your post. Whisky went to RB the next day. Yeah, there are things that could have been done to prolong his life. He lived a good long life and I just didn't want to see him suffer anymore. He had an open tumor on his stomach and his ear was all infected, even though I cleaned it every day. I asked God for a sign that it was his time and he gave me one, so I was content with my decision. Yeah, it hurts, but knowing he is young and healthy again makes me happy.

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I'm so sorry that you lost your beloved Whisky, too. I, like you, believe I did everything that could have possibly been done for Maverick. He's been on one kind of med or another for over a year now: Deep down, I guess I knew his time with me was getting short over a year ago, but didn't want to accept it. What made the last few weeks more difficult to accept was the fact that Maverick was improving, then all of a sudden took a turn for the worse. I started having too much false hope, I guess, and expected another "miracle" to occur. Maybe more could have been done, but even if it could, I did not want to force more stuff down his throat for who knows how much longer. He was getting so stressed out from having to take his meds, and it was turning into a big battle every time I had to give him something. He was beginning to run & hide from me every time he saw me coming. I wanted him to remember me with love - not dread. I guess I know I did the right thing, but oh my God, how it hurts.

I'm doing a little better today. The mornings & nights are the worse. The mornings are bad when I first get up and start looking for him then realize he's not here, and when I go to make him his special food. The nights are bad b/c he's not here to snuggle under the blankets with me like he always used to do.

Thank you again everyone for being there. I don't know how I'd get thru all of this if it weren't for y'all.

Originally Posted by Momofmany

I watched my mother die from liver cancer and if I could have given her one thing, that would have been for her to go before they shut down completely. Maverick was blessed to have this final gift from you. You saved him from an agony he would not have been able to comprehend.

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That's one of the reasons why I went ahead and made the decision - because I knew I'd be feeling unbearable guilt the rest of my life if I went ahead and let him starve to death instead of ending his suffering before it got too bad.

Originally Posted by BoomerKitty

I am so sorry. I know how painful losing a furry family member can be. They make some lovely cremation lockets. I have one for my heart dog so I can "take him with" where ever I go.
The last gift you can give is a peaceful passing. Euthanasia when when you take their pain and make it your own.

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I thought about getting a cremation locket, but for some reason, I don't think I could bear having his remains too close to my heart. Maybe it's because the pain is still too fresh.

To honor my beloved baby, I've decided to have a bracelet made up with his name & the dates, which I will wear always. I'm also going to have a special frame made up which has his name & the dates engraved on it, and in which you can also have a photo inserted. Maverick is being cremated, and along with the urn, the special frame will be placed in a special location in the house.

When my soulmate cat, Max, had to be put to sleep because of acute renal failure, it took a piece of my heart. I didn't want to forget anything about him, so I wrote his life story. He was twelve years old. I included pictures and put it in a folder. I gave a copy of the story to his previous owner and to the vet who took care of him. I wanted them both to know that Max was more to me than just a cat. I encourage you to write his story. It will be a healing for you and a wonderful remembrance in years to come. I still read it from time to time and I cry when I do, but it is still a blessing to my heart.

Hugs to you.