Friday, at work, I found out a good friend from high school died of a heart attack. He was 38. I work with his mom, and one of the supervisors told us that one of her son's died. I dated one of her sons and my best friend dated the other one...she didn't know which one had died. We all stayed friends after graduation and through college, although we have drifted apart the last few years. Finally, towards the end of the day we got confirmation that it was the younger son that went out with my best friend...not that that made it any better, but at least I knew who to mourn for.
I'm just in shock. He was a contractor for home improvements and didn't have any health problems. He celebrated his 38th birthday wednesday, and died on Thursday. He was engaged and had 2 young children. In fact, he had his 2 year old with him when it happened (luckily he was at his future MIL's house).
I am dreading going to the viewing tomorrow. DH can't get off work for it, so I'm going with a friend. I just don't know if I can handle it. It's just not right. And, it scares me. Sometimes I think people that don't let others into their hearts are the smart ones. I mean, I keep thinking how I would feel if I got the phone call telling me my husband just dropped dead. And, that's how his father died. He was fine one day then MIL found him dead on the floor the next morning. I've seen what she went through...I honestly don't think I could handle it. I'm not that strong.
John (my friend) was only 38!! DH is older than that. I know I'm being selfish being scared about that, but I can't help it. I know death is a part of life, but damn, it sucks.
I'm just in shock. He was a contractor for home improvements and didn't have any health problems. He celebrated his 38th birthday wednesday, and died on Thursday. He was engaged and had 2 young children. In fact, he had his 2 year old with him when it happened (luckily he was at his future MIL's house).
I am dreading going to the viewing tomorrow. DH can't get off work for it, so I'm going with a friend. I just don't know if I can handle it. It's just not right. And, it scares me. Sometimes I think people that don't let others into their hearts are the smart ones. I mean, I keep thinking how I would feel if I got the phone call telling me my husband just dropped dead. And, that's how his father died. He was fine one day then MIL found him dead on the floor the next morning. I've seen what she went through...I honestly don't think I could handle it. I'm not that strong.
John (my friend) was only 38!! DH is older than that. I know I'm being selfish being scared about that, but I can't help it. I know death is a part of life, but damn, it sucks.