I have tried for the past year to keep my cup half full. I know people around me have it so much worse than I do.
You asked about my mom's cats. Thank you for asking. I had them fixed, shots and dewormed, found them a good home and then my sisiter refused to let them take them : (... Since I had to go back to california I had no choice but to let things play out.
To my great sadness one of them was hit and killed on the busy street they lived on.
I got a call in July that my mother was dropped in the hospital and it was not good. Could I please come home again. To my horror she had broken her shoulder and hip and every nerve ending in her body was on fire. She screamed in pain. The doctors could not put her under to fix the broken bones
4 bothers and a sister sat there and watched as she screamed in agony, some just didn't bother coming at all.
I made the call to let my mother go, rathre than see her suffer further. I never left her side for the next 8 days. I told her of the bridge and all the pets and fields of flowers and how she would love it there. Finally she gave up this life and went to a better place. No one came to see her but me.
I left Michigan thinking never to return again.
My 2nd to the eldest brother was beaten by three men in April resulting in three brain bleeds, cracked ribs, fractured skull and a host of bruises. They didn't think he would live. I recieved a call in Aug from the hostial wanting my permission to put him in a hospice. They needed to have all the siblings sign.
During all this time I am on kemo and my husband is freeking out for my own health.
I pack my bags and head to michigan again. They take me to the hospital and what do i find? My brother siting in bed telling me he loves me and he does not want to die why didn't any one ask him? OH MY GOD
His insurance ran out so they wanted to uthinize him with the help of the family members. everyone signed off except me.
so I stayed till he was put into rehab and he is doing great.
I took the remaining cat from my sister and found it a good home and left Michigan.
Only to come home and find out I lost one of my own to cancer.
love menou lover