Enough enough? Im so sick and tired of fighting with my BF. Its becoming an everyday occurance. Im sick of feeling like Im doing something wrong because Im working my butt off to pay our bills and take care of everything. Im sick of working at a job that just plain sucks busting my butt for them and getting nothing in return. The job I can deal with nothings going to be perfect its just annoying. Its the BF thing that has me stumped. I just dont know what to do anymore Ive given up. Everytime I work its him texting me telling me that Im not working...Well Ive given him the work number to call if he doesnt believe me does he call..NO He thinks Im doing something wrong after work and IM NOT I go directly to and from work everyday! Thats it! He has even gone as far as to time me coming home. I have to tell him when Im leaving from work and when I leave for work and heaven forbid I want to stop and get a coffee from Dunkin Donuts before work so I give myself an extra 15 minutes because I dont know how busy it will be. He flips out because I work with other men, well its not like we are even in the same area of the kitchen theres a wall/window seperating the cooks and servers and we dont talk unless we have to but even then thats a NoNo...Im tired of fighting to the point where his solution to everything is well if you dont like it leave just go. Thats not what should be the solution it should be well what can I do to help fix our damaged relationship. I realize my past isnt anything good but thats not the person I am now. Ive changed drastically but he still cant accept me for who I am. He doesnt want to talk to me anymore because I cant just cut from A to Z Ive got to hit all the other letters in between. Im sorry but thats just the way I talk I cant help it. Honestly I just dont know what to do anymore, I dont want to leave but I dont want to keep going like this everytime he says hes going to change or things will get better it lasts for one day and goes right back to his normal behavior and Im SICK AND TIRED OF IT! Im at the point this morning where if one more thing happens Im done Im leaving I just dont care anymore and its not worth staying with him if I have to feel like crap about myself if I have to beat myself up wondering constantly what Ive done wrong when I KNOW I didnt do anything wrong! My friends at work wont even come to my house and hang out with me because they know how he is and they are begging me to leave him and go. My one manager even worries for my safety and told me if I do leave he will help me pack my stuff up! Soooo when is enough enough...And how do I leave or when should I leave? I dont know what to do anymore! Well its off to work I go to pretend happiness and make money to pay his bills!
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9/13/09 at 5:00am