Mom, Top Cat, and I arrived at the hotel last night. Tonight I went to a Royal Canin seminar and the pre show party at the show hotel. I felt soooooo out of place there. The reception was nice and all, but as I told mom when I came back, I just did not feel like I belonged there.
And on top of that, Top Cat isn't where I'd hope he'd be right now. He's fine personality wise - he did GREAT in the car, but right where the stitches were you could still see some pink. I almost canceled our trip because of his injury, but we had paid so much and I was stressed out by some major things at home (long, personal story) that I went to just get away anyway. But now I'm sad because I looked forward to this for at least a year, and here I am with everything going wrong.
I am so nervous and sad about tomorrow. I am afraid they will tell me to take him home or something of the sort. It hurts because it feels like I haven't been happy for a long time for not just Top Cat related reasons, but his circumstances haven't helped.
It doesn't help at all that early this year, I had planned a year in advance also to attend the Atlanta show, and then the cat I wanted to enter fell ill and passed away. It seems like I just can't have a good time.
Edit: Forgot to add that since I've been here, I've been deeply regretting my decision to bring him. I wanted so badly to have a good time. I guess I got greedy.
And on top of that, Top Cat isn't where I'd hope he'd be right now. He's fine personality wise - he did GREAT in the car, but right where the stitches were you could still see some pink. I almost canceled our trip because of his injury, but we had paid so much and I was stressed out by some major things at home (long, personal story) that I went to just get away anyway. But now I'm sad because I looked forward to this for at least a year, and here I am with everything going wrong.
I am so nervous and sad about tomorrow. I am afraid they will tell me to take him home or something of the sort. It hurts because it feels like I haven't been happy for a long time for not just Top Cat related reasons, but his circumstances haven't helped.
It doesn't help at all that early this year, I had planned a year in advance also to attend the Atlanta show, and then the cat I wanted to enter fell ill and passed away. It seems like I just can't have a good time.
Edit: Forgot to add that since I've been here, I've been deeply regretting my decision to bring him. I wanted so badly to have a good time. I guess I got greedy.