There are mean people no matter where you go. I think it's not secret that my internship experience has at times been difficult. Well the last month I have felt like there is another counselor who is nit picking me. I run a group on Wednesday and she sees most of the group memebers individually for counseling. Apparently I have upset a couple of group memebers to the point that they constantly tell her things I do that they do not like. Now I am OK with clients not liking me. My job is not to make friends with them. What bothers me is that 3 out of the 4 last weeks this counselor has had nothing but negative feedback for me. I think she wants to think it's constructive but I am a human being and I can only handle so much. In addition, I'm a still a new counselor and I feel like I was thrown in the fire without any understanding of policies & procedures. In addition, I am a very differnt person & a differnt counselor than this woman. She is a traditional AODA counselor who believes in the education format of AODA counseling. I am more of a client centered counselor who believes in insight that leads to understanding. So some of the things she says I have been able to blow off as we are just differnt. Other things I have taken constructivly & tried to change. The problem last night was that I was told that she had someone complain that I don't appear prepared for group. She said the adults want to be there and they will know if you are not prepared. Well OK, but that is not my style. I feel that, especially with the adults, they bring stuff to the table & they are there to talk about their issues & give each other insight. I'm there to make it a safe explorations enviornment, not a "class room" experience. If that's what I want to do I'll be come a teacher. Also, being a new counselor, I have some issues with not knowing enough to run the group. I had been feeling good about how I was doing until the last couple of weeks. Now I feel like the one thing I was really enjoying apparently I am no good at. I know that's a little silly, but I just don't get why she needs to repeat every negative thing that is said about my counseling style. I am really tired of being told what I do wrong, and rarely being told what I do well. Anyway, sorry if that was long, but I didn't get much sleep last night because I was so upset.
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7/9/09 at 7:10am