I am so not ready for this.
Tomorrow morning we will all drive out to my inlaw's place......me and my girls in one vehicle, Mark in the other (he won't let me drive his car

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We'll play with Brandy, and leave her with my DH. She'll be happy and barking, and wagging her fool tail off LOL. That will be our last memory of her. Ignoring the huge lump on her face, she's the same ol pup she ever was...slightly slower in her old age.
She has known so much love in her life time, and for that I am so thankful. I would like to think she knows I'm doing the right thing.
I wish I was like my husband in a sense. He is much more logical and rational, whereas I am emotional, and rationality seems to be an afterthought. Mark is going to miss Brandy too, but he, in every aspect of his life, is an if it's gotta be done, get it done type of person. He doesn't get the emotional attachment like I do. Yes he cares about Brandy, and he is sad her time in this life is over, but he knows we need to do this and because of that, he is slightly detached from it.
You know, I think this is why I love my snakes. I've had more heartache in the last month's time due to furry pets, than I have in my many years of owning reptiles, and yes I've lost snakes, had to euthanise a bearded dragon, euthanise babies that have no chance of survival, etc. There is not the emotional attachment there....
