Awww.... I am sorry you lost your Tugger... It sounds like he was a great friend, who loved you very much... Your love for him shows through your writing, and even though you were not there as he passed, he knows you were his daddy and how much he was loved.
Tugger was very gorgeous! I'm so sorry you lost him.. But, at least his time on this earth was a special time. The bond you form with you special kitty is one that will never be forgotten.