Thank you all.
Honestly, I'm not used to dealing with pet loss. (not that anyone gets used to it) But take my snakes for example...they are pets, and I've had to euthanise some of them, or they've died. It's not something I usually shed a tear about... upset yes, but not "hurt" if that makes sense. I think its because they don't show emotion.
I've lost one cat by euthanasia 7-8yrs ago, but Gysmo was older and gradually ill. My husband picked him up and took him away. With Pax, I had to watch him become ill, and take him to be euthanised, then bury him. It was definately harder in some aspects.
I know time heals all wounds. Kitchi is getting better (some new toys helped distract him I think, and I spend alot of time with him now that I'm paranoid of him becoming ill).
I'm doing ok, untill I start looking at pics. I have a bunch I was going to post from the Friday before he became ill. Or when I'm spending time with Kitchi and Pax isn't there patiently waiting for his turn
I didn't think I was so attached to him. The other part of it is, I didn't plan on having to euthanise 2 pets this year. Brandy's time is coming, that is expected. Pax was not.
Pax my sweet lil boy, I hope your playing with Hope, and Maisie and Elaine and all the other sweet babies. I won't forget the smiles that you brought to me, the smiles you still give me as I look thru my tears at pics of your silliness. I thank you for being a part of my life, even though only for a short time.