So much has happened since I was last on here in November. Im not even sure where to start, I will post this into the lounge as... I will start from the beginning...
As you all know DH and I where having trouble and split up briefly in August. I got a new job and started making really good money which is when I entered secret santa. Shortly after that My husband(now my ex) announced that he had been seeing someone else since the beginnning of 2008 and that he was leaving, he moved out Thanksgiving night, I was left destroyed and heart broken. The week after thanksgiving I lost my job due to medical illness, I had a 7cm ovarian cyst on my right ovary, I was placed on bedrest and told not to do anything a surgery date was set and I spent 2 weeks in the hospital due to complications from the surgery, during that time I also lost my house my car, my cell phone, everything I had. I got extrememly depressed, all my life I had always been independent never needed help, and suddenly all at once I needed help, I couldnt afford food for myself or my animals, I couldnt pay the bills every ounce of independence I had was stripped from me, the man I thought I would spend the rest of my life with didnt love me any more and it turned into a bitter divorce(which still isn't over) Im honestly not sure what to do any more, this is the first time Ive felt up to posting and Im not sure how often I will be on, I was so embarrassed and hurt so many emotions at once I couldnt deal with them. After the hosptial released me to come home, I wound up back in the hospital in the physch ward due to the depression I had stopped eating...I lost my will to live, I had no one to update my friends, my mom took my ex husbands side saying that if I had of done this or that things would be better...I had no one...i wanted to update everyone here so bad, tell you what was going on and apologize for the secret santa I had no money, I had nothing. I spent a month in the physch ward and am still seeing a therapist.
So Id like to apologize to everyone here for it taking me so long to update, as well as come back around, this is the first time I have felt like doing anything in several months. I understand if none of you want to speak to me again.
As you all know DH and I where having trouble and split up briefly in August. I got a new job and started making really good money which is when I entered secret santa. Shortly after that My husband(now my ex) announced that he had been seeing someone else since the beginnning of 2008 and that he was leaving, he moved out Thanksgiving night, I was left destroyed and heart broken. The week after thanksgiving I lost my job due to medical illness, I had a 7cm ovarian cyst on my right ovary, I was placed on bedrest and told not to do anything a surgery date was set and I spent 2 weeks in the hospital due to complications from the surgery, during that time I also lost my house my car, my cell phone, everything I had. I got extrememly depressed, all my life I had always been independent never needed help, and suddenly all at once I needed help, I couldnt afford food for myself or my animals, I couldnt pay the bills every ounce of independence I had was stripped from me, the man I thought I would spend the rest of my life with didnt love me any more and it turned into a bitter divorce(which still isn't over) Im honestly not sure what to do any more, this is the first time Ive felt up to posting and Im not sure how often I will be on, I was so embarrassed and hurt so many emotions at once I couldnt deal with them. After the hosptial released me to come home, I wound up back in the hospital in the physch ward due to the depression I had stopped eating...I lost my will to live, I had no one to update my friends, my mom took my ex husbands side saying that if I had of done this or that things would be better...I had no one...i wanted to update everyone here so bad, tell you what was going on and apologize for the secret santa I had no money, I had nothing. I spent a month in the physch ward and am still seeing a therapist.
So Id like to apologize to everyone here for it taking me so long to update, as well as come back around, this is the first time I have felt like doing anything in several months. I understand if none of you want to speak to me again.
