Oh Debby, I am so very, very sorry that your Merlin has died.
I know there's nothing I can say to help you to feel better at the moment but just know that I'm thinking of you and holding you close. You might remember I lost my beautiful Honey Boy not too long ago, the same way.
Please know that Merlin will be at the Rainbow Bridge, looking down on you from above and in no pain.
I found this poem helped me to get through.
You may no longer see my face
Or the sparkle in my eyes
You may no longer hold me near
despite your wistful cries
It was time to go beyond this world
Where long lost friends await
To you, I say goodbye for now
As I walk through heaven's gate
Please don't mourn for me
I'm not sure exactly when
But someday in the future
We will meet again
Again Debby, I am so sorry. I feel so powerless, being on the other side of the world. If there's ANYTHING I can do, let me know.
Lots of love mate.