This is the day I have feared and hoped and prayed would never come!!
My Merlin is dead....he's dead!!!!!
Please mods don't move this to somewhere else, please give me this place to grieve...even if it isn't where we are supposed to grieve. Please...I need this....this is the place I come..the lounge, the place I go to be with friends.
Tonight...my brother showed up at the door....it was already a bad night, Amber is sick and it has not been a good day at all and then he showed up and says, "There is a big striped cat that has been hit just down the road and I wondered if it was one of yours."
My first thought was, "Oh my God...please don't let it be Merlin!!!"
But I have two other striped cats...so I really didn't want to think it would be...somehow I just did not think Merlin could actually be gone from me, and he always stays right around the house even when he is outside.
But something inside me told me this was different....I think I just KNEW!!!!!!
I said, "Please go get it...please bring it to me!!"
He left and when he came back....there was Merlin....yes, it was him....his right eye was popped out and his tongue was hanging out.....oh my GOD what an awful thing to see!!!!!
It is all my fault!!!!! If I had not allowed him to go outside he would still be alive!!!!
But he wanted to go out so badly...he would not have been happy kept inside all the time...he LOVED being outside!!!!!!!!!!!
We have such little traffic on this rural road that very rarely do animals get hit and he loved being outside SO much!!! It would have broken his heart and his spirit to have to stay inside. He would have went nuts!!!
OH MY GOD!!! WHY did it have to be him??????? WHY?????????????
My brother helped me bury him...under the red maple tree we planted in memory of my father when he died three years ago.
I am taking a leave of absence from here for awhile...I simply cannot come here and be reminded of Merlin for awhile.
Please noone tell me how this is what you get for letting your cats outside. I feel badly enough....I think I would kill anyone who said that.
Merlin was my baby....I will miss him so.....I still can't believe this has actually happened...i keep expecting to see him jumping up on the window ledge wanting in.
GOD I will miss him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will be gone for awhile....but I will be back. I just can't face this place right now...too many memories of my baby.
My Merlin is dead....he's dead!!!!!
Please mods don't move this to somewhere else, please give me this place to grieve...even if it isn't where we are supposed to grieve. Please...I need this....this is the place I come..the lounge, the place I go to be with friends.
Tonight...my brother showed up at the door....it was already a bad night, Amber is sick and it has not been a good day at all and then he showed up and says, "There is a big striped cat that has been hit just down the road and I wondered if it was one of yours."
My first thought was, "Oh my God...please don't let it be Merlin!!!"
But I have two other striped cats...so I really didn't want to think it would be...somehow I just did not think Merlin could actually be gone from me, and he always stays right around the house even when he is outside.
But something inside me told me this was different....I think I just KNEW!!!!!!
I said, "Please go get it...please bring it to me!!"
He left and when he came back....there was Merlin....yes, it was him....his right eye was popped out and his tongue was hanging out.....oh my GOD what an awful thing to see!!!!!
It is all my fault!!!!! If I had not allowed him to go outside he would still be alive!!!!
But he wanted to go out so badly...he would not have been happy kept inside all the time...he LOVED being outside!!!!!!!!!!!
We have such little traffic on this rural road that very rarely do animals get hit and he loved being outside SO much!!! It would have broken his heart and his spirit to have to stay inside. He would have went nuts!!!
OH MY GOD!!! WHY did it have to be him??????? WHY?????????????
My brother helped me bury him...under the red maple tree we planted in memory of my father when he died three years ago.
I am taking a leave of absence from here for awhile...I simply cannot come here and be reminded of Merlin for awhile.
Please noone tell me how this is what you get for letting your cats outside. I feel badly enough....I think I would kill anyone who said that.
Merlin was my baby....I will miss him so.....I still can't believe this has actually happened...i keep expecting to see him jumping up on the window ledge wanting in.
GOD I will miss him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will be gone for awhile....but I will be back. I just can't face this place right now...too many memories of my baby.
