Please help me I feel so desolate.....

snowy37

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Four months ago, I was driving through a local wooded area and I spotted some kittens by the side of the road.....I pulled in to investigate. There appeared to be no mother and the four little ones were in danger of getting hit by a passing car. So I scooped them all into my car and took them home. There were four of them and I couldnt keep them all as I already have a dog and a cat so I kept one and arranged homes for the rest. We kept the most outgoing, confident and friendly and my three little girls decided to call him Snowy. So snowy came to live with us and after a trip to the vet they estimated that he was just over four weeks old. And so Snowy lived with us, he has been the sweetest most adorable kitten anyone could wish for. Two days ago tradgedy struck, I was pulling away in my car and I heard a clunk, then saw Snowy dart from under the car. I got out and dashed to see if I had hurt him. He appeared to be fighting with this head and I knew then that I had seriously hurt him. I picked him up and told him it would all be okay but I knew it wouldnt, he died a few moments later. How can I ever look myself in the mirror again, the rational side of my knows it was a terrible accident but I feel so terribly guilty. I feel desolate at the loss of my gorgeous boy which in itself is bad enough but to know that I killed him is eating me up inside. I love all animals and would never hurt anything, god I feel awful on the few occasions I have trodden on a snail - how can I ever get through this. I dont feel I can talk to anyone as I dont feel anyone can understand.....maybe someone out there can? The irony of the fact that I saved him from being run over, only to do it myself is not lost on me.
 

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Oh...
I am so sorry for what you are going through... It's most certainly not your fault, this was a terrible accident... I don't quite know what to say; just that you have come to the right place for support. I hope you get better soon.
 

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I am so very sorry for your loss and what you are going through right now. Rest in peace sweet Snowy.
 

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I am so sorry for you and your loss. You must not blame yourself, it was a terrible accident. Try and remember that you saved him and his siblings and that you and your family gave him a home and lots of love.
 

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Originally Posted by KRZ

I am so sorry for you and your loss. You must not blame yourself, it was a terrible accident. Try and remember that you saved him and his siblings and that you and your family gave him a home and lots of love.
Please don't blame yourself. It was truely and accident
 

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Poor Snowy. The world isn't a fair one, and kittens just don't understand the danger of cars. At least he had time with you and your family, knowing he was loved.
 

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MrBlanche is right - Snowy unfortunately made an awful mistake and what is worse is that it was your car
I can't begin to fathom how awful you must feel, not to mention the guilt is compounded by the fact that now your precious princesses have lost their beloved kitten

While this wound in your heart is still so fresh, try to remember that Snowy is now playing happily over Rainbow Bridge, with all your other loved ones who have passed. Perhaps if you read the tribute to Henry the Greeter, it will help you to envision little Snowy enjoying his eternal reward:
http://www.thecatsite.com/forums/sho...d.php?t=182035
Please give yourself and your girls hugs and please know that your TCS family shares your grief. You can PM any one of us if you don't want to post publicly. Remember, we understand. Sending prayers and vibes of comfort and healing to you all Susan
 
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