Hoping this helps those in pain

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Author is Unknown:


I know what you're thinking. You think I'm dead. Because you cannot
see me with your human eye, cannot feel me, with your hands or hold
me in your arms. You think I am gone forever.
You recall how I looked when I left this place and you cannot
remotely imagine that I could possibly be alive in another place.
You are racked and torn by the pain of our separation and it blinds
you to that which is right in front of you ... me.
How many times since I left your immediate sight have you been told
that I'm dead and you should "get over it"... How many times have you
cried yourself to sleep because you feel like an outcast, believing
you're supposed to get over me because that's what people say is
normal... but somehow you can't and no one seems to understand?
How many times have you put yourself through such excruciating pain
because you aren't willing to consider that I am not, by any means,
dead.

I want you to do me a favour and go back in time with me. Remember
the glorious day I came into your home- was I not the most intriguing
creature you'd ever met? Did I not make you laugh and giggle?
Did I not look at you with such adoration that you wanted nothing
more than to spend the rest of your life with me? I wanted this too.

Remember the days when I was in my prime and we did many things
together. You were so proud of me! I was a good friend and I took
care of you when you cried, were angry or felt down and unhappy.
When you didn't have a lot of time for me because of your
obligations, I waited patiently for you. I was always there when you
needed me. Did I not look at you with such acceptance and patience
that at times you felt perhaps a bit unworthy? You were never
unworthy in my eyes.

Remember when age crept up on me, my bones became stiff and my
movements slower. Still I met you at the door when you came home and
followed you around the house. We'd been together for so long, I was
your very best friend regardless of what you were doing, saying,
thinking. Did I not look at you with such kindness and understanding
that you felt overwhelmed? I couldn't get enough of you.

Remember the last time we saw each other with earthly eyes? You tried
to be brave but I knew you were crying ... I know you so well. Better
than anyone else in the whole world. Did I not look at you with such
pure trust and love that you yearned only to hold me close and keep
me with you always? Did you not promise that you would love me
forever? I believed you. If this is so then why have you let me go by
thinking I no longer exist?

Remember the depth in my eyes all those times I looked at you with
adoration, acceptance, patience, trust and love. Who created this
depth and love? Would the Creator diminish the song of our laughter
which was created in the name of love? I am no longer an earthly
figure, this is true. My body was only part of who I really am. My
body would have been but a mere shell on earth if it were not filled
to overflowing with my soul, my spirit, my loving light.

When we met you thought I was cute, sweet, pretty and adorable. But
what kind of relationship would we have had if this is all that I'd
been? How could you have loved me if I'd had no spiritual substance?
We are all made up of energy which resides far deep down inside of
us, it is our core, our soul, spirit and loving light. It is the
energy that is all of life ... it has no beginning, it has no end. It
simply is and always will be and without it there is no life. You
can't see it with the naked eye nor can you hold it in your hand, it
is simply a certain knowing that this energy does exist. It's a
knowing just as you know that our love existed on earth -
you couldn't see our love in a solid sense, you couldn't gather it
all up and confine it to one place. But you *knew* it existed. There
was no doubt in your mind.They demand you get over me, insisting that
I'm dead and you'll never see me again because animals don't go to
Heaven. Oh really? I'm here to tell you different. You were worthy of
my love and undying devotion on earth as I was of yours. Do you
really believe this love would be snatched from us *forever* by a
loving Creator simply because I wasn't human? Was I not a
living, breathing creation with personality? How could I have been so
if I didn't possess the energy of soul, spirit and loving light? And
if this energy is and always will be, then how can it be that I am
dead? If my core is not of the energy that is all of life then I was
never alive to begin with.

But you know better.You cry because you miss me, this I understand. I
miss you too - I miss the belly rubs, hugs and kisses that we shared.
But life does go on beyond these wonderful, fulfilling physical
connections. I came to this place to live a whole new life, not
because I didn't love you anymore or because I wanted something
better. I came here because it was time for me to go to the next
phase of my existence, something all living creatures must do
eventually. It is the normal progression of life. I was not taken
away from you because you cannot take away that which was never
owned. My presence in your life was and is a gift to be cherished and
honoured just as I cherish and honour you.

Life is not simply about being born into a body, living a certain
number of years and then dying. Energy cannot die. We are blessed
with time in a body so that we can learn, share and grow. It prepares
us for the next phase of our eternal life. The body holds within it
the true life force of our existence ...our soul, spirit and loving
light. Without these our bodies would be empty, blank, void of
feeling and expression. Without our energy we would indeed be dead
and could never have experienced our love for each other.

You say that all you have left are memories. Not so. You see, when I
took leave of my earthly body I left a little something behind for
you. You can't touch it, hold it or examine it. For what I left
behind is far too uninhibited for confinement. I left behind a piece
of my soul. I placed it right next to your own which is quite fitting
as we were always side by side in our earthly life together. I love
you too much to have left you with nothing but memories which tend to
fade and grow cloudy as the years go by. I love you too much to have
vanished without a trace. How selfish it would be of me to remove
love and light from your life.I understand your tears, each one you
shed is testament to your love for me and I am honoured and humbled.
But don't forget the good things we shared -

remember and smile. This is an honour for me as well. And when you
need me I will be here. Close your eyes, relax, take slow, deep
breaths and picture me in your mind. Shut off the world and your
notions of what death is and give me a chance. Look for the subtle
signs I send you. Don't stop being proud of me, I am a friend to be
proud of, I am still your friend and soul mate. Don't memorialise the
death of my body but instead honour and celebrate my never-ending
life for it is eternal and forever as is my love for you.

Until we meet again...
 

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Wow, that had me crying. I'm glad I came across this. Thank you for sharing this.
 

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Mary Anne - did you write that? It's very moving and beautiful. I have not lost any of my kitties yet, but nevertheless there is great comfort in the words.

I brought me to tears - my colleagues are now looking at me and thinking . . . 'hormones'!!!!!!
 
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No Yola-

The author is Unknown- a friend sent this to me after Shredder died, and although it was so long to read, it was also so right-on in what it said, I kept it and will pass it along in the hopes it speaks to others as deeply as it did to me.
 

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Originally posted by hissy
No Yola-

The author is Unknown- a friend sent this to me after Shredder died, and although it was so long to read, it was also so right-on in what it said, I kept it and will pass it along in the hopes it speaks to others as deeply as it did to me.
Awesome! I have a major mop-up job to do after reading that -- you're right, though, it's absolutely bang-on.

[Thanks so much -- from Chinook, Percy, Shasta, Gryphon, Nibs and Samantha -- and untold other critters over the years -- for sharing this where our human could see it. OOPS, there she goes again!]

Thanks.
 

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that was so moving. it made me think back to the good times i had with my pets. i miss them terribly but i know i'll see them again someday. i truly believe that i have felt their presence with me and watching over me countless times. thank you so much for sharing this.
 

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Thank you so much. I am writing this through my sobs. I needed to read that my midnight will be gone 2 years on Nov. 1, 2003. I miss him terribly. He was only in my life for a short time but he meant the world to me. It validates my feelings.
 

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Despite the fact that I put my sweet Savannah to rest this very evening, this story was bittersweet and healing for me. Thank you for sharing it, Hissy. I truly believe that our animal companions will be with us when we, too, "cross over."

Jenk
 

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I was trying not to cry, and it's been over 2 years since the cat I was thinking about passed away. Thanks for sharing. It is oh so true that the memories may become cloudy, but the love will not. I bet it will be 5 years, and I'll still have that affection for Tiger... forever.
 

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Oh, what a good cry! Thank you for sharing this..I feel a wonderful closure for which I've been searching over a baby I lost years ago. We all snuggle a little closer to our babies today!
 

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Hissy, Thank you for sharing this. My cat just passed away for a week. I have been crying so much. I really miss her. I do feel better after reading this... and I hope I can see her again someday.
 
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