I lost my job in April, and my unemployent ran out two weeks ago. I did get the Federal extension and I'm fortunate that my dad has offered to help me pay my rent for the next 6 months. So I'm ok through January, anyway. Then I wipe out what little in in my IRA if it comes to that.
But my fridge is just about empty. I am definitely
going without - without health insurance, healthcare, dental care, without luxuries.
However, I stocked up on Royal Canin for my four MONTHS ago when I was still able to. I still have 4-5 months worth of cat litter. I went from feeding my cats a daily wet meal to just once every week or two as a treat. They used to get treats daily, now they don't and although they ask for them every day (my gosh Ferris is a whiner!) I have to tell them no. And I apologize to them for having to say no.
I made a promise to them that they'd always be taken care of - especially feral-born Ferris, I told him he will NEVER have to be hungry again. If I have to, I will start buying them cheaper dry foods to get them through until I get back on my feet again. But only if I have to.
Vet care, well, fortunately only Max was recently due for his annual and shots - the others are good until May/June at the earliest. But I found the least expensive vet clinic in my area and Max was given an exam, got his nails clipped and got his shots for just $37. I didn't much like the clinic, but it was the best I could do, and he got the care he needed.
I just ate a lot less that week.
No matter what, these cats of mine will get taken care of, NO MATTER WHAT. (That's one of the reasons I am selling cat grass seeds on eBay right now - see my post in Member's Marketplace - any profit I make is going to feed the cats with.)
I know that in the very worst case scenario (please God we don't get there) that Nial would take the bengals back in for a time - and if we got to it, it would ONLY be temporary, for I love them to pieces, and my situation WILL GET BETTER.
I am very blessed that I have family and friends that care and that are willing to help me in what small ways they can - I haven't asked for help, I don't want to have to.
A very good friend recently told me, "Betsy, we're not going to let you go hungry," and I love her for saying that. But I don't want to take advantage of her either, so I'm just trying to do the best I can. I'm actually cooking - and I don't/can't cook!
Last night I made mac & cheese with hamburger crumbles in it, added a little grated parmesan, a little shredded cheddar and some fat free italian dressing. It wasn't too bad, actually - I was all proud of myself, and it made enough for me to have three full meals from.
Life is hard for many and getting harder every day. I hope it turns around for all of us who are in this position right now. And I am thinking of all those in California who are going through such horror with the fires right now.
When you've got a little extra - give it to someone who needs it more than you do. Because you never know when you might find yourself in their shoes.