Ok, if you've read my question about the resident cat, then you know I said that the "work" part was a thread of its own. I've finally wrapped my poor little mind around the thought enough to put it in words....I think!
If things don't pick up here, workwise, as of the end of October, we will close the bakery and both of us hunt new jobs. In all honesty, I think it's time. We're not bringing in enough to pay the overhead and bills, I've been robbing Peter to pay Paul for so long that I'm simply tired.....tired of worrying, tired of not having enough money for things......tired of the hassle when a check bounces, etc. I was looking at my calendar the other day, and was thinking that my birthday is in a couple of weeks, what I really wanted was for hub and myself to take the Saturday afterwards and drive to Dahlonegah, GA to their Gold Rush Days.......something we've done more years than not since we've been married. Have good friends who live there, more like family, there's arts and crafts, music and food.......but I think I'd best just be hoping we have the money for cat food that week without borrowing any from my mom and maybe a haircut for me (I got a cut and a perm in June......hasn't been trimmed since!). Soooo.....changing jobs from this one to jobs that might actually make money......sounds good to me, even though I do enjoy this one most of the time!
But...here's the scary part to me......(a) I've never been unemployed....and I know that if I don't start looking now, there's a very real chance that I might be... and (b)....don't laugh.....I have NEVER since I got out of high school searched and applied for a job! Mom and dad thought it would be good for me to work somewhere else for a summer, so I applied to a certain retail giant, wasn't hired because I lived too far from the location to suit them
. But seriously, I worked part time from the time I was 13 with my mom and dad at the shoe store until I married in 1990, then I went full time......have done everything from cleaning toilets to stocking shelves to clerk duties all the way up to payroll/light accounting. Then when mom and dad retired in 2006, we had started this in 2005, so I just rolled on over to full time here instead of working 3/4 time in two jobs, lol! I don't even remember how to write a resume or anything anymore! Needless to say, I'm feeling a mix of emotions right now...happy/sad/excited/terrified/worried/peaceful/depressed/.....well, to say the least, I'm quite hard to deal with right now....I spent half of yesterday crying for no reason at all.
But you know the absolute worst part? Even though hub has said we'll close....I'm still not sure that he won't change his mind and try to hang on a little while longer......and I don't think I can take the stress that will come with that !
Thanks guys....for letting me vent a bit, and put this into written perspective!
If things don't pick up here, workwise, as of the end of October, we will close the bakery and both of us hunt new jobs. In all honesty, I think it's time. We're not bringing in enough to pay the overhead and bills, I've been robbing Peter to pay Paul for so long that I'm simply tired.....tired of worrying, tired of not having enough money for things......tired of the hassle when a check bounces, etc. I was looking at my calendar the other day, and was thinking that my birthday is in a couple of weeks, what I really wanted was for hub and myself to take the Saturday afterwards and drive to Dahlonegah, GA to their Gold Rush Days.......something we've done more years than not since we've been married. Have good friends who live there, more like family, there's arts and crafts, music and food.......but I think I'd best just be hoping we have the money for cat food that week without borrowing any from my mom and maybe a haircut for me (I got a cut and a perm in June......hasn't been trimmed since!). Soooo.....changing jobs from this one to jobs that might actually make money......sounds good to me, even though I do enjoy this one most of the time!
But...here's the scary part to me......(a) I've never been unemployed....and I know that if I don't start looking now, there's a very real chance that I might be... and (b)....don't laugh.....I have NEVER since I got out of high school searched and applied for a job! Mom and dad thought it would be good for me to work somewhere else for a summer, so I applied to a certain retail giant, wasn't hired because I lived too far from the location to suit them
But you know the absolute worst part? Even though hub has said we'll close....I'm still not sure that he won't change his mind and try to hang on a little while longer......and I don't think I can take the stress that will come with that !
Thanks guys....for letting me vent a bit, and put this into written perspective!