well I did it...

restaurant work is what I do now.
Debby I am on medication now. I just switched over to a new kind of medication and it doesn't seem to be as effective as the other the one I was on was. I am currently on Topamax. I was on Tegretol. I think I am going to call my DR monday and tell him i want to go back on Tegretol I never had any of what they are calling break thru seizures with the tegretol. The topamax contributes to my weight loss but the stress i have from my job doesn't help at all. I got to endure 8 hours of why did I loose my license and how this was going to effect my job preformance today, not a good day let me tell you and it wasn't my fault. like I ASKED for the state to take my license. it's mandatory if you have a seizure that you cannot drive for 6 months after the fact, period. I give up, I can't win for loosing.
btw, thanks for caring you guys are the greatest.

Barb, I feel so bad that you are so depressed and sad today. I do understand to a certain extent.... never having had a seizure I cannot fully understand what you must go through, but you are to be commended however, for being honest with the driver license people...my sis-in-law...who had seizures...bad ones daily, lied about it for years....just so she could get her license. She put alot of people's lives in danger...she had wreck after wreck, and blamed it on "the weather, the curve in the road, she was tired, it was too dark.... etc etc "
She almost killed her children when they were little because of this...(an accident that left her son in traction and her daughter barely breathing) Thank God you are honest about it....that says alot about you....you obviously a very honest and caring person. I wish I could say something to help you through this rough time in your life......just please know that I care and I am here for you if you want to talk....we both live in Iowa so we aren't that far apart...if you need me I am here.

Debby, you are such a wonderful person. I can't wait to meet you someday in person, just so I can give you the hug you so deserve!
Having a seizure is probably the most (ok it IS the most) scariest thing I've ever had happen to me. I don't know what happens to me during that time frame. I don't know how long I'm out for. I don't know where I am. It's a horrible feeling, I swear. barely remember waking up the other night with my s/o hovering above me but I didn't know why so the next day I asked him and he told me that I was having a seizure. It explained why I was feeling so depressed and sore but I don't remember actually having the seizure. the same thing happened at Petsmart I remember going to look for Brad to show him the new cat bed I was going to buy but couldn't find him so I walked back to get some cat food figuring he'd find me, well all of a sudden everything went silent and there was this horrible ringing in my ears, and that was the last thing I remember, the next thing I remember is honey (what I thought was) screaming at me(he was just quietly asking me though) "can you talk?, are you ok? can you walk?" and not knowing why he was asking me that, and at the same time wondering how we had gotten home(we were still at Petsmart). No I don't like having seizures at all, they scare the poop right out of me. I thik they scare me probably more then even my biggest phobia of water. I'd rather sit in a pool all day then keep having seizures if I had a choice.

barb,
Do you have any temp agencies that you could go to for the time being until the factory job starts? It might be worth it to quit now & find a temporary office job of some sort. I think it would make you sooooo much happier & there would be so little stress.

not really Kim. I wish there were. Clinton isn't a big town so there isn't a whole lot of options here for me an darn it now that I can't drive, my world is limited even more. But I am confident that with my Cat site vibes behind me, I have nothing to worry about! I can do anything!
I had another seizure yesterday, that's two in the last 4 days.It used to be that I maybe had one every year, now they are coming this close, I think it's time to get back on my original medication. I called the doctor and left a message telling them I wanted to go back on the tegretol no ands if or buts and I wanted to know how to do that then left a number where I could be reached for the next three days so now it's up to them to get ahold of me. It's obvious that the Topamax isn't working and the Tegretol was so I want to go back period.

I hope your Dr. calls soon! Do you have any refills left on your old prescription? Make sure to discull the change with the pharmasist so he can let you know if there will be any repercussions. I'm sending you extra vibes when we get together at 9:01pm tonight.
Hugs

I am guessing that you have insurance thru your job? What about going on a stress-leave or short-term disability? It seems to me that it is job-related that is causing your seizures. Most insurance companies cover such things. Maybe think about that, and take advantage of it. Then, you could be home until the new job comes through. If it were me, I think I'd do it.

If I knew I was going to get the other job, I'd just put in my two weeks now, but since i'm not sure if they are going to hire me, I really don't want to do anything like that until I know for sure. I just wish they'd call me and let me know either way. I'd like to get out of Ljs but I realistically don't think it's going to happen.

I hope everything wors out for you hun. Did you have an interview? I forget if you did or not. A good way to ensure the job is to send a thank-you letter after the interview. I've got a basic one here if you want it. It might help...

Sure if you have time to send it. that'd be fantastic! thanks! I never thought of that.

I sent you a PM

about 95% of people don't think of sending a thank-you letter, so this will put you ahead of the game.

Tamme, I sent you a PM. thanks again. you're sweet for doing this for me!