My Dusty, Passed Away.

MY BABY DUSTY DIED FROM A BLOOD CLOT ON SATURDAY NIGHT.
SHE WAS WALKING BETTER, AND FOLLOWING ME AROUND. I WAS SO HOPEFUL. ALL SHE WANTED WAS TO BE PETTED. SHE TOOK HER NAPS. WHEN SHE WOKE UP, SHE WOULD LOOK FOR ME FOR ATTENTION, (And food of course) I KISSED HER AND PETTED HER ALL DAY. SHE WOULD LICK AND NIBBLE MY HAND. WHILE I WAS PETTING HER, SHE LAID ON HER SIDE, SO I COULD RUB HER BELLY. I SAID TO HER, OH BABY, YOUR FEELING BETTER. I REALLY FELT SHE WAS GETTING BETTER.
THEN, SHE TOOK ANOTHER NAP. AT ABOUT 8:00PM, I LOOKED AT HER IN HER BED. SHE WAS HALF IN AND HALF OUT. I KEPT WATCHING HER, NOT KNOWING WHAT WAS WRONG. THEN SHE STARTED CRAWLING OUT OF HER BED, WITH HER TWO FRONT LEGS, THATâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]S WHEN I NOTICED HER BACK LEGS WERE PARALYZED. I BECAME A COMPLETE WRECK.
I CALLED A FRIEND WHO DROVE ME TO THE ANIMAL EMERGENCY HOSPITAL. WHICH IS A 40-MINUTE RIDE. (MY VETâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]S OFFICE WAS CLOSED, AND THEY REFER YOU TO GO THERE)
I WRAPPED HER IN A BLANKET.
I THOUGHT WE WOULD NEVER GET THERE. I DID NOT WANT HER TO SUFFER. I HAD NO CLUE WHAT WAS HAPPENING TO HER. SHE WAS NOT CRYING. THE POOR BABY JUST LOOKED SO CONFUSED, SHE HAD NO IDEA WHAT WAS GOING ON. I KNEW IT WAS BAD.
ALL I COULD DO WAS PET HER AND HOLD HER CLOSE TO ME.
WE WERE JUST A BLOCK AWAY FROM THE HOSPITAL AND SHE DIED IN MY ARMS. I CRIED LIKE A BABY.
I RAN INTO THE HOSPITAL WITH HER AND GAVE HER TO THEM. THINKING MAYBE BY SOME MIRACLE SHE WOULD NOT BE GONE. HOWEVER, THEY CAME OUT AND CONFIRMED THAT SHE WAS. I BROKE DOWN AGAIN. WHEN I GOT MYSELF TOGETHER. I ASKED THE WOMAN AT THE FRONT DESK “WHAT HAPPENED TO HER�. AFTER I TOLD HER THE STORY, SHE SAID THAT DUSTY HAD A BLOOD CLOT, AND THAT THEY TRAVEL FROM THE HEART AND LODGED IN THE BACK LEGS AND THAT IS WHY SHE WAS PARALYZED.
WHEN I WENT HOME, AND OPENED THE DOOR, I BROKE DOWN AGAIN. I HAD TO HIDE HER THINGS FROM ME. IT WAS SO PAINFUL. I AM TAKING IT DAY BY DAY. IT IS GETTING A LITTLE BETTER.
EVERYONE KEEPS TELLING ME, YOU TOOK GOOD CARE OF HER AND SHE WAS HAPPY WITH YOU. I KNOW SHE WAS, JUST AS I WAS HAPPY WITH HER. STILL, I WISH DUSTY HAD BEEN ABLE TO LIVE LONGER. I EVEN THOUGHT, COULD I HAVE DONE MORE FOR HER.
I ONLY HAD HER FOR three ½ MONTHS BUT I ALWAYS VISUALIZED HER WITH ME FOR A FEW YEARS.
MY FRIENDS INSISTED ON TAKING ME TO AN ANIMAL SHELTER THE NEXT DAY. I WENT WITH THEM, BUT, I AM NOT READY YET. I REALLY THINK I WAS LOOKING FOR DUSTY THERE.
DUSTY WAS THE SWEETEST KITTY I HAVE EVER SEEN. I LOVED IT WHEN SHE WOULD TALK TO ME EVERY TIME I WALKED BY HER. (SHE WAS A SILVER, DOLL FACED HIMALAYAN, WITH YELLOW EYES) EVEN WHEN I BRUSHED HER AND SHE HAD, HAD ENOUGH, INSTEAD OF RUNNING AWAY SHE WOULD JUST SLOWLY WALK INTO MY BEDROOM, HIDE BEHIND THE BED, WAIT 5 MINUTES AND COME BACK OUT.
I WAS VERY LUCKY TO HAVE HER. SHE WAS TWELVE YEARS OLD WHEN I ADOPTED HER, AND SHE WOULD NEVER TRY TO BITE, OR SCRATCH ME. WHAT A LITTLE LADY SHE WAS
MY LITTLE SWEET BABY, I JUST MISS HER SO.

SORRY THIS WAS SO LONG.

I just read your post and I am so sorry you lost Dusty. It is so hard to loose a pet as they have such a firm hold on our hearts. If Dusty was going to pass, at least she was being held by someone who loved her. I do hope you decide to eventually adopt another baby, because they need a good home where they will be loved like the home you gave to Dusty.

Sally, I'm so sorry. Your pain comes through your post, and especially how much you loved her. She was your special girl. Enjoy the memories of her, especially all the love you showed her in her last few days with you.

I'm going to move this to our Rainbow Bridge forum. If you aren't familiar with the poem, there is a copy of it at the top of that forum. I find great comfort in those words, and I have no doubt that Dusty is waiting for you there, free from pain and confusion, frolicking in the green grass until she sees you again.

Sally, I'm so sorry Dusty died in your arms just before you got to the emergency vet clinic. The last thing Dusty was aware of was you and how much you cared about her. I really feel our pets are able to sense when we are doing everything we possibly can to help them. You have just had a major loss, take all the time you need to grieve for Dusty, and don't let anyone try to tell you she was only a cat, or try to rush you into getting another one. You will know when you are ready to bring another cat into your life. My thoughts are with you.

I'm so sorry for you lost dusty. Sounds like a truly wonderful kitty cat

Sally, What a wonderful last day you and Dusty had! That was a special gift for both of you. I'm so sorry you didn't have her longer. Even when they're with us 15 years it's not enough, however. I know it was very hard for you to lose her on the way to the hospital, but she was with you, and I'm sure that would have been her choice. You know that God knows every sparrow that falls--and He knows Dusty. I feel certain that you will play with Dusty again, and she will be a young, healthy cat. God bless you and ease your pain.

THANK ALL OF YOU FOR YOUR KIND WORDS. MY GOODNESS, READING THEM, MADE ME CRY. I GUESS THE DAY WILL COME WHEN I DON'T BREAK DOWN AND CRY SO EASILY. WHAT IF I HAD DUSTY IN MY LIFE, FOR YEARS? I WOULD BE A BASKET CASE. ALL OF YOU ARE SO GREAT! IF I EVER GET ANOTHER KITTY, YOU WILL BE HEARING FROM ME, FOR SURE.
I HAD TAKEN PICTURES OF DUSTY. I WENT TO PICK THEM UP LAST NIGHT. OF COURSE WITH MY LUCK, THERE COMPUTER SYSTEM WAS DOWN, SO I HAVE TO GO BACK TONIGHT. WELL, WE ALL KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN WHEN I LOOK AT HER PICTURES.
I'D LIKE TO SEND A PICTURE OF HER, SO YOU CAN FINALLY SEE HER. I NEVER SENT A PHOTO TO A WEBSITE BEFORE. BUT I'LL DO MY BEST. THAT WON'T HAPPEN UNTIL MONDAY, SINCE I'M OFF TOMORROW.

ALSO, HEIDI,I CAN'T SEEM TO FIND WHERE YOU MOVED ME, THE RAINBOW BRIDGE? I FEEL STUPID. WHERE IS IT? I'M IN THE BEHAVOIR FORUM, AND THERE ARE THESE - - NEXT TO VIEWS AND REPLIES. LET ME KNOW WHAT I'M DOING WRONG.
THANKS
SALLY
P.S. I WANT TO WISH YOU ALL A HAPPY EASTER, AND A HAPPY PASSOVER.

I FOUND IT! IT TOOK ME A WHILE.
BYE FOR NOW.
SALLY

Sally, We'll look forward to seeing Dusty's pictures. Of course you will cry when you see them, but you need to get the tears out. If you have any problems posting them, we can help you with that. Someday soon I hope you get a needy little cat or kitten who will be with you for many years. When you're ready, go to the shelter again. You will know that you're saving a little life, and that little one will help you with your grief. I wish you peace of mind.

Here's a link to a post Heidi wrote about posting pictures. I think you'll find it helpful:

http://thecatsite.com/forums/showthr...sting+pictures

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm sitting here crying after reading your post.

Just remember that everyone is here to help.