Cuddles, your momma gave you the best 16 weeks she could. May you rest in peace and fly with the RB babies that went before you!
Gayle, thank you for sharing his sweet life with us, I enjoyed watching him grow. Take comfort in knowing you did all you could; from the extra feedings his first week, to his last. I know he can never be replaced, but enjoy the time you have with his siblings and may their antics bring you peaceful memories and endless smiles.
And thanks very much for the little memorial, Marianjela! It was very sweet and those old pictures made me cry. It's a good kind of crying, though. Everytime I cry now it gets more out of my system.
I should find out from the vet on Monday what was going on with him. The vet thinks it was a congenital defect of some kind, but he'll let me know after the holidays.
Last night, Punky slept right next to my face and when I woke up she was giving me little kisses on my face. She's my little buddy.
My vet said that Cuddles had a really narrow esophagus. Other than that, he really didn't have anything wrong with him. He probably always had some trouble swallowing. I just never noticed it before. He must have breathed in while he was eating because it was difficult for him to get the food down fast enough. If I had known he had a narrow esophagus, I never would have given him wet food with a lot of gravy. Most cats can handle that kind of food! The vet said he had a lot of aspirate in his lungs. He must have really taken a big snort. I feel bad that it happened. It was such a freaky way to die. He was the runt and he always gained weight slower than his brother and sisters. I miss him, poor little guy.
I just buried Cuddles on my parents' land. I found out that the ground in my front and back yard is so rocky. I can't even dig in it.
I didn't cry when I buried him. I guess I had cried enough before. I still feel bad that I lost him.
Honey there was no way for you to know that he had a narrow esophagus, so don't feel bad. You gave him love and a chance at life that he wouldn't have had otherwise. My heart goes out to you, because we always think "what did we do wrong". But, you didn't do anything wrong.